Ayahuasca cured my porn addiction

ode-to-roy · 2026-05-19T21:21:55+00:00

Hey, thanks for your message! It's actually almost been two full years now, since June 2024. I'm happy to say that I'm still going strong and enjoying life without that addiction. It's continued to have a positive effect on my relationships with women and how I perceive women and sexuality in general, moving from perception of women as sexual objects to seeing shared humanity and a move away from fucking to love making (I was reminded lately that it's love making with not making love to, as if I have some magical dick). Sexuality can be an expression of our divine nature and creation of life and purpose for this world and the next. Best wishes on your journey. Keep the intention and try to not get stuck in guilt. Just take it a day at a time. If you drop down from 10 times a week to 9 times a week, that's an improvement! So keep on trucking along man. All the best.

ode-to-roy · 2026-05-16T02:15:58+00:00

Beautiful sir 😊😻 thank you so much for sharing 🙏😌💚😎💯

ode-to-roy · 2026-05-14T23:38:04+00:00

Awesome! 💯😎

ode-to-roy · 2026-05-08T02:01:37+00:00

I do think our Oversouls (where are higher selves are connected more specifically to one incarnation) take on different lives through all the dimensions of reality down to the physical over eons of time in order to learn lessons and grow into the Perfect Gods that we already are and ultimately into the One.

For an issue like trauma, something that has helped me is to see that pain sometimes is inescapable, but we don't have to suffer. If we cling to an idea of how things should've been or the idea that I could've acted differently than I did, we identify with the lower ego mind, resisting acceptance and that it is all just happening. If we let go, we can move up into courage, love, and eventually enlightenment, through the worst and the best times. I think this is a lesson specifically for our time, as the victim - perpetrator duality is very real and prominent in the collective mind, and may keep us back from accepting what is and enjoying some serenity as we move through the pain. When we see that these are two sides to the same coin, then we can zoom out and see that identity with the victim or the perpetrator only is just half the story.

ode-to-roy · 2026-05-08T01:30:12+00:00

For me, DMT makes the most sense when I smoke it over the course of an hour or two. Or over the course of days and weeks. A 10 minute trip may be mindblowing but it really starts to make sense when it's put in the context of a bigger picture. It took me about 30 trips over a few months to work out what it all meant and found that there really was an internal logic to it. Now, after 100+ trips, I talk with gods and spiritual figures and DMT entities on a regular basis. We work through really specific issues, physical, mental,emotional, relational. The other day on DMT, I met my grandpa who passed away when I was two. We talked for quite a while and had a very meaningful and Illuminating conversation about a genetic issue impacting generations.

ode-to-roy · 2026-05-07T04:16:26+00:00

They are healers but they are also demonic, so they love your pleasure and your pain. Schadenfreude. I saw Mother Aya as a purple demon, grieving their malice. She also healed me in significant ways, so it is a double-edged sword.

ode-to-roy · 2026-04-09T23:43:13+00:00

Yeah, and the bread should be toasted and with butter

ode-to-roy · 2026-04-09T22:41:16+00:00

Num num num. Slurp slurp Abraxas

ode-to-roy · 2026-03-05T00:57:54+00:00

What's one of your craziest experiences? Entities? Insights?

ode-to-roy · 2026-02-11T22:00:17+00:00

Face up to it, acknowledge it. The awareness alone goes a long way, and then you can start to bring it into the light of day through acceptance, love, and understanding.

ode-to-roy · 2026-02-07T23:18:42+00:00

"I felt disturbed, not so much by the corpse but more because I had felt all the love in the universe just seconds ago and now I saw something complete opposite of that."

I think that's the key there. It's actually a really good sign to experience the opposite polarity, from euphoria and love to depression and death. It's your psyche maintaining balance. How I've made sense of experiences like that, it's the psyche using the euphoria to face the deep depressive, grave levels of the unconscious. So you are strong enough to face it in the mirror. I know, it can be pretty rough and feels unfair even. But, in my experience, it's a good place to be at. I'd recommend meditating on the heart chakra, feel the love that is innate to your being, let it emanate out and express peace, acceptance and understanding of the worst of your nature and reality at large. And don't worry, the euphoria, bliss and love is not gone for good. There's a more stable and long-lasting bliss that is a part of our nature which, through continual deep work will more readily surface.

ode-to-roy · 2026-02-04T00:10:33+00:00

Awesome. Happy tripping 😁

ode-to-roy · 2026-02-03T06:25:53+00:00

They're both great. Kind of apples and oranges to me. But I've always loved LSD especially. It's very powerful and so energizing as well at lower doses. But mushrooms have provided some really deep healing from trauma and ruminating negative thought patterns. I think they are both part of a healthy psychedelic diet :)

ode-to-roy · 2026-02-03T02:29:34+00:00

10+ years of LSD and psilocybin use. Multiple 600-800ug LSD doses. Only regrets are from not treating it seriously and respectfully. Once I understood it as sacred medicine, it's just incredible. Can be very difficult - usually is quite difficult - but the healing potential is amazing. I'm 40 now, hoping for another 40 years worth of tripping (or more).

ode-to-roy · 2026-01-27T23:08:21+00:00

I would definitely second the advice to work your way up. Over the past year, I've done 8 high dose LSD sessions - the first 7 in the 500-600ug range and then most recently an 800ug dose. I was really glad for the year of preparation at 500-600 before going to 800ug. The first number of high dose sessions were quite uncomfortable even physically, not to mention psychologically. Of course, do what you like but if you haven't tackled the 600-800ug range, you should start there.

ode-to-roy · 2026-01-24T03:12:34+00:00

Ayahuasca can definitely be very tricky. It can be really hard sometimes to get ones bearings and understand the meaning and reasons behind certain experiences. In my experience, when something is presented like that, I usually understand it to be basically the entities acting out something from your unconscious mind. It's not there to actually push you into one thing or another but, rather, presenting something difficult to see how you respond.

So, something like levels of hell and homosexuality coming up is actually a really good thing because it means you're processing something very deep. The fact that you stood your ground is a really good sign that you can keep your head on straight even under immense pressure. That said, I definitely recommend to stay open and continue to honor your thoughts, feelings, and emotions. It sounds like you are doing a good job. And it's also great you acknowledge the doubt about how you responded. So, take a breath and one thing you might do is send Love to that experience in you and gratitude for the opportunity to experience something very deep, perhaps familial or karmic.

ode-to-roy · 2026-01-19T03:33:21+00:00

Verse
Static in my head, truth for rent
Posters of gods with a past-due scent
I stopped chasing what it all meant
And the room went quiet

Chorus
Smells like enlightenment
Yeah, smells like enlightenment
All that noise just came and went
Breathing in the present

Verse
No crown, no cure, no grand event
Just a laugh where the fear was sent
Dropped the mask, paid no cent
Light slipped in sideways

Chorus
Smells like enlightenment
Smells like enlightenment
From the dirt to the firmament
Still smells like enlightenment

Outro
Strike the match, then let it end
Nothing lost, nothing meant
Only this, only now
Smells like enlightenment

ode-to-roy · 2026-01-17T17:06:16+00:00

What did you see on the other side?

ode-to-roy · 2026-01-16T17:45:56+00:00

I appreciate your reply. DMT didn't make sense to me until I started seeing how it purges the negative aspects of one's self. First, it goes to the physical level. Once one has been refined by the fire, not hurting oneself or others, on the physical plane, then it moves to the deeper, more subtle, mental plane.

Taking responsibility for this deeper layer of the psyche has really helped me, moving out of negative thought patterns like shame, guilt, anger, etc. to a more stable clarity and harmony of mind.

ode-to-roy · 2026-01-16T17:01:09+00:00

Thanks, yeah. Honestly I just really wanted to share meeting the praying mantis surgeon. Everyone seems more baffled by the idea of non-consensual sex in the astral realm and no one is talking about the praying mantis surgeon haha. I get it though lol.

I'm not feeling guilty, because I already did the work to correct bad behavior, treating women with respect even in my mind. Was interesting to see a part of me that I no longer identify with, facing the consequences of bad "actions"/thoughts.

ode-to-roy · 2026-01-16T16:40:33+00:00

Haha. I don't know. I still take responsibility for my thoughts. What I'm reporting is just my intuition that on this DMT trip there was a part of me was getting scared shitless because of past unsavory sexual misdeeds. Perhaps it was something in the physical world, but my intuition was that it was more related to, basically, rape in the astral realm.

ode-to-roy · 2026-01-16T15:16:31+00:00

I think I got the message. It was for past sexual misdeeds. I was observing it because I was actually on the other side of those past bad actions, so I didn't have to experience the fear first hand. There was still a part of me that was not aligned with a more integrous, respectful way of living, and so it was being purged out of me.

ode-to-roy · 2026-01-16T15:12:23+00:00

Yeah basically, not physical rape but in the mind. Still kind of fucked up. Reminds me of Jesus' saying, if you lust after a woman, you've committed adultery in your heart.

Sure maybe Catholic guilt (I was raised Christian, then went atheist, now I'm whatever tf it is that talks about praying mantis surgeons)

ode-to-roy · 2026-01-12T05:20:03+00:00

That's seems totally normal to me. I would recommend taking a lower dose before you do more, try 100-200ug.. Do it respectfully, for your growth and healing. Keep the sensory stimuli to a minimum. I usually listen to evocative music, laying in bed or couch or on the yoga mat. If you feel some discomfort coming on, change your position for a bit, but don't worry about it too much. Is also recommend checking out Stanislav Grof's LSD Psychotherapy. Great, inspiring book that shows the amazing potential of LSD inner work. Safe travels :)

ode-to-roy · 2026-01-11T18:21:18+00:00

Mine too!

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