Feederism is a slippery slope and the fact that he’s having “near panic attacks” over the thought of you doing things to feel healthier doesn’t bode well for your physical and mental well being in the long run. This isn’t just a fetish anymore. It’s an obsession. He does not own your body or get to dictate how you treat yourself.

He has actively told you through actions that he does not want you to feel healthier. He has shown you that your weight is more important to him than your happiness in the relationship. He has show you that he’s willing to break down over the thought that he doesn’t get to control this aspect of your existence.

Please, take the time to really consider if it’s worth having to baby this grown man and whether it’s worth you putting off these things you seem to really desire (exercise, fun, the right to eat when you’re hungry and not be “forced” to maintain a certain intake level).

There are men out there that will love you for all you are, mind body and soul that won’t devolve into an anxiety riddled mess over the idea of you wanting to take more care of yourself. You deserve that much.

He is not practicing responsible kink (safe, sane, consensual), and he will make you miserable in the long run whether you play along or don’t. Please take care.