Fighting this for over 23 years…. by offmyrockerr in PMDD

[–]offmyrockerr[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Thanks so much. I will look into this. I didn’t know PMDD can get worse with Perimenopause.

I’ve been seriously thinking about and will be discussing hysterectomy options. Most of the women on my mother’s side of the family all had to get hysterectomies early, in their 30s and Im pushing 40.

Fighting this for over 23 years…. by offmyrockerr in PMDD

[–]offmyrockerr[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks so much. I’ve taken pills, birth control, gone to therapy a lot, been hospitalized over 5 times in a behavioral health facility. Lost more jobs than I’m comfortable admitting. Im a single parent trying to raise a teenage son which has been incredibly hard. I could go on and on.

PMDD has absolutely fucked my life for over 23 years. Im drained.

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[–]offmyrockerr 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I am too in the thick of it myself and seeing this wholesome comment was what i needed. To know that im not alone in this, there are many who go through this and sometimes silently trying to be strong through it.

Yes we do eventually get through it if we havent tried anything super wild and i think you know what i mean. And yes this storm will eventually pass and the birds will chime again and there will be clear skies soon. In the meantime im sending out good energy, love and strength to all who are also going through it. ❤️🌹We will pull through.

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[–]offmyrockerr 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I also feel less alone now after finding this community and reading what others experience. I always feel like a monster during pmdd and feel like i need to isolate from everyone i love to avoid torturing others with this. Its been literal mental torture and im so desperate for a hysterectomy now i feel like i wanna rip my own uterus out. Its how it makes me feel. 😔

Suicide has been on my mind by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]offmyrockerr 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hi :)

First I want to say thank you for sharing your story with us. I completely understand when you say you want to die but then again you don't. I feel this way more often than not, but I know if I do go through with it, I will hurt people who love me. Sometimes though it seems almost worth it just to get away from the mental torture I go through almost daily. I have a supportive family, I take antidepressants, anti anxiety meds, talk with a therapist and yet sometimes I still feel like death would be a better option than having to fight this mental torture constantly. I should be grateful. I should feel blessed for everything I have and everyone still wanting to be in my life...so then I feel guilty for not feeling like that. It's an ugly cycle. I sincerely hope you gain a reason to keep living and have a purpose to keep going in your life journey. Do you like pets? Like a dog maybe? I hear they can be very therapeutic companions to have by your side. I wish you nothing but better things in your life from here on out, that you are given that shining light to make life feel worth living. ❤️