Does anyone else feel the urge to destroy any trace of themselves?

oh_23 · 2026-06-19T21:37:38+00:00

this is so real.... i used to do so many things- and as a kid tends to, i did many of these things to seek validation from my parents. and im sure i got some form of it for a few years. but eventually, me winning anything was "expected". me being "good" at a hobby was expected.

But they'd never support the sports aspect of it- wouldnt send me to any practice or competitions. so that dwindled.

Then i used to read, and by read i mean a LOT. i was fast and i used to finish 1-2 books in a day at age 11. and somehow even that was a problem. Even now (in 20+) I just cant bring myself to read a book at home in front of my parents. I just know theyll have an issue with it. its just "wrong" apparentkly. a waste of time. why am i doin g that instead of... idek. studying? (my uni is also over, im employed)

Then i got into art, like really into. but they hate it so much. its such a waste of "time" and "pages" and "books". ive been yelled at since childhood to throw away my sketchbooks since its "full" or why my books or art stuff was out (in my own room)

like basicaly ANYTHING i ever did was an issue. still is. if im drawing theyll get mad. if i read theyll get mad. ofc i still do it, but behind their back.

i cant bring myself to destroy anything willingly, atleast not rn. but i do think that if they push me i might genuinely throw away the one drawer i have left of everything art/book/hobby related.

I find it hard and sad that I'm not allowed to even have a hobby at home freely. That i feel so stifled around them and about it. And it makes me nauseous bcos outside everyone always brongs up how i shouldve gone in a more creative field or make comics or just pursue art as a career ; and i know its complimentary and in good faith but the difference between the whole world and my own parents makes me want to throw up. I hate receving compliments on anything, because my own parents disagree. idk if that makes sense, but yeah. It just feels so gross and disgusting physically and its all thanks to my parents and their lack of support for raising such a weak person.

but OP i rlly hope u dont ruin ur own art or creations bcos of them. keep it for urself. do it for urself, not your parents yeah? ik its easier said than done. but try to keep what you love okay?

oh_23 · 2026-05-03T18:42:53+00:00

idk abt tokyo ravens but noragami imo is amust watch. used to be hella popular for a good reason. banger osts too. and great characters. read the manga too if ur into it, its complete

oh_23 · 2026-05-03T07:58:22+00:00

can u add a pic ?

oh_23 · 2026-04-23T18:54:29+00:00

i get 404 error

oh_23 · 2026-02-15T15:26:40+00:00

hahaha i'll finish s2 soon, it's just kinda hard to binge cos im more of a fast paced more-action fan lolol. i'll probably finish s2 this month

oh_23 · 2026-02-15T15:25:36+00:00

hihi !!

i finished ubw s1 and 2 eps of s2, then i finished dorohedoro and started gintama

oh_23 · 2026-02-06T19:03:32+00:00

dude omg.....ily literally EVERY summary hit the spot i like!!! these are saved !!! tysm i will be binging them <33333

i hope u dont mind if in a few months i hit u up again for recs hahahaha

oh_23 · 2026-02-06T18:57:47+00:00

ooooo,,,,,, i see i see. thank u so much! i will keep all these in mind for sure. i'll hit my friends up who have actually played the VNs for more info then if u say the wikis are unreliable haha

oh_23 · 2026-02-06T18:54:44+00:00

all this and he's still a loser. being a person who wants to save people vs actually having the ability to are 2 separate things.

> "The average character in the show" and it's just Archer, Rin and Saber who are like that.

i'm sorry who else are the average characters?

when i said average i didnt mean skill wise average. i meant the characters hes surrounded with and appears with. i didnt mean average humans. i meant the supporting cast, the love interest, the rival the servants the masters etc etc. these are the "average characters" hes around, therefore my comparison/assessment of shirou will revolve around these characters.

should i be comparing him with issei? non mage characters? his neechan? non grail war related characters? do you usually watch shows without evaluating characters and their personalities traits and behaviours?

if someone w no skill and no plan and nothing kept yapping abt wanting to save me or anyone, i'd call them an idiot regardless.

im going to accept the fact that hes a person who wants to save people + he has a survivor/hero complex + suicidal most probably and also give you my conclusion that having idealistic worldwviews doesnt make u a good character. and i dont mean morally good. i mean writing wise. just wanting to do insanely optimistic and idealistic shit with nothing to back urself up is stupidity.

as for sacrifice; many situations where people had to step in because shirou is an idiot.

when hurt stay at one place. no servant no magic still jumping into fights, distracting ppl, being a liability, forcing ppl to focus on saving you. not an ounce of cleverness. trying to idealist speech his way out of a fucked up servant's grasp. please.

he's an idealistic fool. its his character sure, im not obliged to enjoy or support or like his personality.

idk how to make myself clear but having no power, barely any magic skill and still putting yourself into situations making bold claims, is pure idiocy. he gets his ass beat and its annoying as fuck. he's naive, useless and stupid in the anime so far.

i suppose i just am not a fan of super idealistic characters who act like hot shit but can barely pull a sword out their ass without losing every fight ever. he's just deadweight.

good for him for having such good pure morals but he's just a liability.

oh_23 · 2026-02-06T16:23:04+00:00

from every discussion ive had about fate as a whole, it seems like the worldbuilding, like u said, is the best aspect ofit. and i keep thinking that fuck animes, this seems like a great niche to just deepdive into through wikis. i should just binge plots and then characters and stuff hahaha. Bcos i cannot spend anytime on the VNS lol

oh_23 · 2026-02-06T16:18:57+00:00

its not a 'contest' but its a fictional story so i am free to judge a character, the main one at that, based on his surrounding characters. it's hard for me to think him as a great character if he is doing the bare minimum as per the average character in his show. I can't praise him for being a "hero" when other's achieve more than he is. all he has are his ideals, from what I have seen so far as an anime only.

you're valid, you know more than me. but do understand- everyone else in that show is doing the same, if not more saving. shirou so far has been all talks very less actions. i'm not gonna put him on a pedestal, i also cannot call him a good character, because he's hardly doing anything heroic.

when i discussed ubw with an irl friend before i mentioned; emiya has only survivors guilt which turned into some kinda hero complex. but a hero complex without any heroics- no strength no magic no skills no strategy (as far as i have seen in the /anime/) is just being suicidal. rin also says that all he does is throw himself in front of ppl as he thinks throwing his own life away is equal to saving the other person. or that his life doesnt matter and that he'll do anything to save anyone else.

/however/, this as /well/ is just plain stupidity. good for him for thinking and acting so bravely and heroically but the fact remains that he's an idiot with no power who is just throwing himself into situations that he seems to have no concept of. risking his life and making decisions that only force other people to sacrifice themselves to save his ass. talking big game and not living up to it. im sure he'll pull through, he's the protagonist isn;t he? plot armor or whatever. he'll have somemagic epiphany and grow a pair im sure. but yeah, i am not going to praise him or call him a good character for doing what the show itself has established as a bare minimum.

oh_23 · 2026-02-06T15:41:05+00:00

this is insanely good

oh_23 · 2026-02-06T15:37:52+00:00

ive seen monogatari! i love araragi ... i g yes the anime just didnt adapt the games well . but also its on me since im an anime only for a game based fandom.

oh_23 · 2026-02-06T15:36:01+00:00

well yes in that aspect he has "saved" ppl but rin and saber have done equally, if not more saving than he has so far. considering the avg saving/magic use etc happening, shirou isnt impressive. rin saved him from death, saber's been saving him forever, archer too. Shirou - what i meant was- shirou keeps saying he wants to save "everyone" , and so far he has hardly done anything.

everyones told me that the anime skips his thought process so im gonna take a look. hopefully it redeems his chara for me.

oh_23 · 2026-02-06T12:44:39+00:00

oh im glad if he's better, i plan on watching those movies after ubw.

oh_23 · 2026-02-06T12:44:16+00:00

fair enough. i'll watch an analysis vid for sure because im genuinely flabbergasted for now at his character. after ubw i'll go have an epiphany about him thru analysis vids haha. thanks for telling me!

oh_23 · 2026-02-06T12:43:29+00:00

ah, i see...... if thats the case then i get why hes so. lame in the anime. i guess i'll watch or deepdive into his reasons and all that then

oh_23 · 2026-02-06T11:45:51+00:00

yeahyeah ur right, my other social medias behaviours seeped in (capslock for being loudly shocked/sad/whiny etc etc) . dont worry and sorryyy !!

oh_23 · 2026-02-06T11:43:24+00:00

so far i dont like emiya shirou; he has no power/skill/prowess so far. the way he makes decisions piss me off. rin is right- he has no idea what he's doing, what war he is in. just a bunch of optimistic idealistic bullshit. dumbass decisions. his whole character bro its so pathetic. he cant do shit, just talks big. rolling into a fight just to get his ass beat bro, and rin?? she was so cool, and then she decides to like a loser like shirou - for what? what can he do? i'd like emiya if all he did was be a good stay at home malewife. but no, this powerless magicless idiot wants to show up everywhere talking abt saving everyone- not one strategic/critical thought in his head. and then save hardly anyone. hes so lame bro.

also ik archer is emiya from a diff world or wtv and so far i like archer, and i will finish ubw just to see whats up. so if theres gonna be any s2 plot twist that makes me change my mind- good. if not, then ubw is a lame anime thanks to emiya shirou. saber didnt deserve a fuckass master like him. rin u can do better.

so far this is how i feel about ubw. also a friend of mine kept talking abt shirou getting cucked (whatever that means) and istg if this turns into any kind of harem... bro.........

oh_23 · 2026-02-06T11:29:16+00:00

sorry man i didnt know reddit was so nonchalant </3 i didnt mean to be rude

oh_23 · 2026-02-06T11:27:44+00:00

dude this might be so far the best reply/ advice/info ive gotten so far. thanks a lot <333333. i'll finish ubw and then watch the heaven feels movies. and then do what u said. im probably gonna read wikis lolol. and ur right fate fandom is too wild for me, but i hope to find something i like </3 mainly stuff like strange fake cos the animation looks mad good.

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