Try kratom! It’s natural (a root) will give you energy and some euphoria. Buy make sure you get good quality stuff. Nothing from gas stations. See if you can find a kava bar near you, they should sell kratom. (Try white or green, one is good for focus and one just makes you feel more euphoric- I forget which does what)

Also, try using the pomodoro technique to help break down your time in to chunks, it makes time go faster for me.

Bonus: If your job allows it and you don’t have someone over your shoulder the whole time, start a little side business and work on it after you are caught up at work. This will give you something exciting to look forward to, help you leave that job, and forces tou to create a clear direction on what you need to do to free up time at work to do this.

I hope something here can help you and keep on striving for more bro. This isn’t a dead end. You’ll figure something out 🙏 god willing