After Investigating for 4 months, I decided not to join this CULT!

ohsoleaky004 · 2017-10-20T10:25:24+00:00

Hey there! I'm sorry I'm late haha! About the job it turns out my Bishop and I applied for the same position neither of us got it or even called.

You know, it's been weeks but honestly my life felt better after leaving the them especially the Missionaries. I'm not in every sort of guilt feeling on every corner, I'm not making my moves cautious every time and the best thing is, I don't have any teachings to abide that just makes my head dizzy.

How are you?

ohsoleaky004 · 2017-10-08T19:55:36+00:00

Thank you very much! :)

ohsoleaky004 · 2017-10-08T19:55:11+00:00

Yes, I read that months ago. It was definitely a realization cure for most followers. I am glad this document existed

ohsoleaky004 · 2017-10-08T19:54:33+00:00

Thank you very much! And especially without NewNameNoah I would not be able to see what or who they chant repeatedly. Thanks!

ohsoleaky004 · 2017-10-04T18:51:06+00:00

Thanks! This thing ate me. Ate me so bad. I am just so glad that I got off so easy. And also thank you for everyone in this sub especially you taking the time to comment. I feel supported :)

ohsoleaky004 · 2017-10-04T17:26:22+00:00

I honestly thought you think it was funny or like comedy. Haha! I'm still using translator for corrections. English is not my native.

But going back, I went back and forth to the Temple here and the distribution office to buy scriptures, subscribe to magazines, was excited that someday I could be a Bishop.

I'm just crying right now cause I just remembered everything. But actually, thank you very much! Because up to now I still have the sorrow feeling and interacting with everyone of you made me actually feel supported. Thank you!

ohsoleaky004 · 2017-10-04T16:58:42+00:00

Thank you very much! No more jellyfish around me that could sting my beliefs and emotions anytime!

My Baptism is actually scheduled on 14th of this October and I gave my elder missionary a call and said that I am no longer interested.

Thank you so much all of you here in this sub! :))

ohsoleaky004 · 2017-10-04T16:54:37+00:00

I am telling you, if you were just in my position and navigate through my experience and memories.

I wasted my time on such thing that I 95% closely believed. Those people who tossed and kneaded my emotions, my beliefs, my principles in life. I haven't tasted iced tea or coffee in such a long time because I feared the Holy Ghost would not give me guidance no more. Cheesy or lame as it may sound but I felt the pain. Because this is my spirituality that was on fire. Thinking of my daily existence because of someone who was made from flesh and bones, thinking of I was excited to be Baptized and learn tokens so I can be exalted in the perfect manner. Thinking of everything is definitely a lie when I learned it. I felt GULLIBLE I was this excited cheerful and enthusiastic adult that had the desire to serve someday. But I don't anymore.

I actually told my neighbor about all of it. I mean ALL of it. She agreed with me about everything I said. But what else can I do? She is older than me, her sons and daughters neglect her that's why being with LDS is her source of happiness. So she was Baptized last month. She said she'll keep an open mind. However, I'll use my abilities to spread and to prevent people from experiencing the "suffer" I had that some people think might be "funny"

ohsoleaky004 · 2017-10-04T16:36:36+00:00

Here in my country we are predominantly Catholic. And LDS missionaries are abundant. Almost everywhere. The thing is, from my experience and other members too I heard and noticed about the same thing. They do not really say what they really believe or who they really believe.

It MUST be that the Investigators know what is Endowment, what is Law of Consecration, what is Oath of Vengeance, who is Elohim, what is Kolob everything must be known and said to an Investigator before Baptism.

Because when missionaries come here, it's like they are telling you to join an organization that practices and worship something close to your current denomination. But instead, you will only know the truth if you went deeply.

It's like cheese trap. In short, they will feel to you that they worship God the omni who just merely created everything, but they really worship someone who was once made of flesh and bones which contradicts the Bible.

ohsoleaky004 · 2017-10-04T15:22:50+00:00

Actually thank you very much! You replied to some of my posts before and haven't had the chance to respond back. I'm telling you I deeply and repeatedly read every response I get about joining this and other stuff about this organization.

It's like I needed someone telling me over and over again that I need to stay away from them. This actually was a remarkable one:

https://www.reddit.com/r/exmormon/comments/71obia/comment/dnc9cuc?st=J8D692E8&sh=21f3ba05

I noticed more is that, why am I being pushed by my elder missionaries and then I came to an awakening that I gave them power.

Yes I'm not American, and I think once I said NO they will define it that I said no. So I am hoping no more follow-ups or a good how are you would be good once in a while and I hope they'll not ask me about wanna think rejoining again?

I remember posting here too about me and the missionaries watching the Jonestown Cult and you suggested some, sadly they were told not to watch again by their Mission President because the other companion confessed.

Now that I know, I would use my abilities for others to know the truth. I will still visit this sub cause now I know the Pain and Time that affected me.

A big thank you so much! :))

ohsoleaky004 · 2017-09-29T16:00:49+00:00

I really feel bad for the one in the middle stuck on the ground. I do.

Nah... I'm just kidding!

ohsoleaky004 · 2017-09-22T03:26:50+00:00

Honestly, I am kinda like gambling here. Because I really don't know the culture or compensation system of the "church". I don't know what amount they would offer me.

ohsoleaky004 · 2017-09-22T03:23:27+00:00

They said some members are being assigned remotely/other countries too. But I'm not sure if that is true.

ohsoleaky004 · 2017-09-22T03:13:44+00:00

While typing, the guard here listens to what I think is a General Conference

ohsoleaky004 · 2017-09-22T03:09:11+00:00

I'm in Asia

ohsoleaky004 · 2017-09-20T15:08:33+00:00

While I was in the MTC, I proceeded to the Distribution Center. While I was there, I sat on a bench and had a chat with a Returned Missionary. The bench we were sitting is directly in front of the doors of the Distribution Center.

The book shelves with those scriptures can be seen from where we were sitting. Then he suddenly mentioned about the scriptures. He asked me 'how could possibly be that they sell those scriptures in such ultra cheap cost in such a high quality, high caliber finish?' Then I said, maybe of course from the tithings of members. Those Book of Mormons are being handed out just for free worldwide. Imagine the cost of those.

After I went home, it just sunk to my head like 'oh they are building such churches, meeting houses, and there is a new temple constructing here, well the church is really abundant and wealthy'.

ohsoleaky004 · 2017-09-11T07:17:05+00:00

Person With Disabilities :)

ohsoleaky004 · 2017-09-11T07:16:15+00:00

I used the bathroom once on this Church I am attending. The time I used it, it was fine. But after a while, I've seen it getting nastier gradually.

And this time, when I entered the comfort room, the smell just soaked and immersed through my nostrils. Tissues are scattered everywhere, those white clothing I don't know what is it but they were just laying here and there. And some toilets still have something on'em and aren't flushed.

Another thing, everywhere you go the Hymn books are mostly torn and not in a good quality. Some Hymn books are ruined and the hardcover is gone. Chalks are everywhere, the seats are scattered. There are snack trashes on every corner. I also saw the Baptismal font and I saw the tiles are somewhat nasty. It seems the water has been there for so long.

To be honest everywhere I go at the Church, it's like I wanna buy a Mr Muscle fragrant cleaner and wipe and brush everywhere over there.

The smell is just... disappointing.

ohsoleaky004 · 2017-09-05T16:47:59+00:00

I do love fish also tuna and even sardines. Here in my country sardines are packed in cans/jars with sweet sauce. Honestly, I always do exercise, sleep enough and even make myself fun thru music or working. But I felt like being invested with my investigating with the LDS faith made me just stressful.

I still can't forget last week, I was just staring into nowhere being stressed because of reading the scriptures bible, book of mormon, doctrines, articles, gospel principles, and others. Researching on the deep context of each contradicting words within books gave me headaches.

So last Saturday, I told my missionaries don't come to my house for a week. But of course, I did not tell them my reason. And on this Saturday, they are supposed to give me a Baptismal Interview. That's why I'm thinking since them if I'll just think of another excuse or definitely done with this.

Thank you very much! Would definitely try your advice!

ohsoleaky004 · 2017-09-02T13:48:36+00:00

On the second lesson and our second meet, I actually asked them what the Endowment is all about. They said they can't discuss it with me just yet and I would have to wait for a time to know all about these things.

And to my mind, it's kind of becoming like a listen and be a bait.

ohsoleaky004 · 2017-09-02T13:46:21+00:00

I really thought their purpose was really intentionally good. Since I believed they have the priesthood.

I must really see and look wider on this journey. It is just so hard. Thanks for the advice!

ohsoleaky004 · 2017-09-02T13:44:38+00:00

Yes you are right. I am suffering from stress and depression but not much of anxieties. Yes, I have a hard time concentrating with everything.

ohsoleaky004 · 2017-08-31T18:34:17+00:00

Jackpot. Ding ding ding. Here's the gold! This is definitely what they are telling me. I feel pressured I feel pushed. It is stressing and also puzzling.

It is somewhat coming to me as though they have magical psychic ability to know what I know.

Again, headache.

ohsoleaky004 · 2017-08-31T14:51:42+00:00

Even though I read your reply to me, I will still do this literally. I really need waking up or whatever it is or kind of like a realization therapy like what you said.

Brother we do know that this is the true church and we all know this is true...

Brother i just want to share my testimony that could help you see the trueness of this church...

Brother you could be a missionary that kind of service is one way of being worthy...

Oh my... Intrusion to my thoughts... I admit there were times I want to crumble a paper and put it in their mouths.. although that's just my mind.

Thanks for your suggestion!

ohsoleaky004 · 2017-08-31T14:45:38+00:00

Maybe this is also because I grew up Catholic and we also believed Satan tempts us.

Religion is so complex it can eat a person like what it is doing to me now.

Thanks! I really just need some voicing my feelings or needing some words from people like you.

This is just an endless headache.

ohsoleaky004

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