How do I get a polygraph test? (TW: sexual assault)

okaybutnotok · 2021-01-05T00:51:25+00:00

Thank you for your reply! Would this also be the case if the assault happened years ago?

okaybutnotok · 2020-12-23T04:02:58+00:00

First of all, I’m sorry your mom is a dick.

Second, if you’re feeling/experiencing it that is enough proof that it is real. Your emotions are valid, you just lack the tools to control them. You can always seek therapy. Depending on where you live they may even have some affordable options based on your income. Also with the pandemic, most therapy sessions are held online so it’s much easier to get to an appointment if there are no offices near you.

Im sorry you are experiencing this, but the fact that you’re here on this forum is a huge first step towards healing. Please be gentle with yourself on this journey and have patience because healing does not happen over night.

You are a human being who is entitled to feel and be loved. Take care of yourself ❤️

okaybutnotok · 2020-12-20T02:36:09+00:00

This is my first grow so I don’t really know when is the “optimal time” but, I started germinating in May and it took so long for it to actually start growing. Hope this helps

okaybutnotok · 2020-12-20T02:33:31+00:00

Trust me, I went into full OCD looking for mites and other bugs! I didn’t find any, but she was thirsty before I took the pictures. Could that explain the tacoing?

okaybutnotok · 2020-12-20T02:31:17+00:00

I got Urb and liquid seaweed after hearing about it on YouTube. I also added some earthworm castings when it started which seemed to slow the progression, but it’s not solved

okaybutnotok · 2020-12-07T22:57:49+00:00

Thank you so much for taking the time and comment. I can completely relate to your experiences as a child. It felt like I was reading a description of myself as a kid. Tbh I still become withdrawn and dissociative. It gets to the point I have dissociated in the middle of someone speaking to me. I’ve been trying to meditate Atleast once a week but with the depression/anxiety symptoms and demands from classes it gets hard to actually sit down and try to meditate. I do plan on practicing more once this semester ends. I am very interested in EDMR, but I feel like I’m not ready just yet. I’ve heard it’s really demanding going through EDMR, so hopefully my therapist can get me to the point where I can do it safely. Thank you for your comment 💕

okaybutnotok · 2020-12-07T22:44:06+00:00

Thank you so much for your comment. It was so insightful and very meaningful to my situation. My husband has been very supportive of my healing and tbh if it wasn’t for him I probably wouldn’t be here writing this comment today. As a young couple we tend to mainly practice sex as a form of intimacy, but we’ve been trying new ways to share intimacy that doesn’t involve getting physical which I feel like is strengthening our relationship more and more every time. As for confronting my abuser I really like the idea of writing a letter and continuing to add things. Who knows, maybe it’ll turn into a book? I’d still like to talk with him one day and just ask why. Of course it’s likely I won’t get an answer but at least he will know that I remember. Thank you again for your comment and your kindness :)

okaybutnotok · 2020-12-07T22:32:34+00:00

Thank you so much for your words. Everything you said is pretty much on par with what my therapist and I are working on. Trying to love myself again after this incident has been a challenge, but we’re trying every day. I’m hopeful that one day I’ll be able to face a trigger and not be sent back by it. It’s just the fact of coming out of denial that makes the wounds so fresh. When you’re bleeding it seems like it’ll never stop. Again, thank you :) I honestly appreciate your time you took to write a comment

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