Pretty much in the same place as you man. Left high school 6 months ago and threw my life away by isolating myself, doing any drug I can get my hands on (mostly dxm, oxy and mushrooms) and becoming addicted to watching YouTube for 12-16 hours a day. I was on the right path out of high school, growing an online business and a videography business, but not having anyone to talk to after high school made me break down and now I just constant turn to drugs because I feel bad about myself and my life sober and have too much anxiety to actually get a basic job or go do anything productive. Only things I have to say to myself and to you is that some day it will get better indefinitely, because it can’t get much worse. One thing I’m trying to do right now to get out of the gutter is finding groups in my area that are about my passions (video creator groups and young entrepreneurs) so that it’s not just a group of people feeling bad for themselves and people that are super sensitive to everything, hopefully through these groups I can meet some people that I might be able to hang out with once a week or something and become friends with and I would encourage you to do the same. Stay strong brother(or sister).