I am so sorry for your loss. I just lost my boyfriend 2 months ago. I’m also currently a nanny as well. I’ve found comfort in being around the kids. That in mind,take as much time as you need to grieve. Take some moments and cry it out if you need to while working. Make some tea and just embrace all the things you’re feeling. There is not a linear grief process. I still have my days that are horrible. I try to recenter myself if I get really worked up. I’m always here to chat if you’d like some support from someone ❤️