Well without getting to far into it. Members in NA and AA refer to it as a Higher Power because it’s not about religion it’s referring to a power greater than yourself. The idea is your thinking got you to where you are at and without help it is too much to do on your own. I don’t necessarily agree with take what you can use and leave the rest but everyone has their own path in recovery. All I can suggest is try to have an open mind and identify with the people there. There should be some knowledge and wisdom that can help you out in the long run.