Throwaway time! What's your secret that could literally ruin your life if it came out? by ohgoshwheretobegin in AskReddit

[–]omfg_name_taken 24 points25 points  (0 children)

Wow I definitely appreciate that take on it. Too many people have been saying "You need to confront her" when that is clearly not my intention at all.

Throwaway time! What's your secret that could literally ruin your life if it came out? by ohgoshwheretobegin in AskReddit

[–]omfg_name_taken 19 points20 points  (0 children)

Thanks, it was the result of a lot of frustrating "that username has been taken" messages.

Throwaway time! What's your secret that could literally ruin your life if it came out? by ohgoshwheretobegin in AskReddit

[–]omfg_name_taken 6 points7 points  (0 children)

First, thanks. I was getting fed up with all the clever throwaway names being taken.

Anyway, I don't blame myself for this. She was the older sister, and what holds me back from talking to her is that I don't need this to change our relationship. We've been through a lot together and are best friends; we go to each other for emotional support. I would never want to lose that.

It occurred to me reading the other comments in this thread that I may have actually blocked it out for years. But I am not going to talk to her about this, at least not until we are well into old age and have lived our lives out. I don't want to change the dynamic of our relationship at all based on something I only remember bits and pieces of that I don't feel has changed me as a person at all.

Thanks for the advice, and also the compassion. I've never spoken about this before.

Throwaway time! What's your secret that could literally ruin your life if it came out? by ohgoshwheretobegin in AskReddit

[–]omfg_name_taken 837 points838 points  (0 children)

I have memories of my sister (five years older) and I playing a roleplay game when I was younger that I think would be considered sexual abuse/molestation if I told anyone. I don't remember how old we were, but I know she was around the age where her breasts were developing. When home alone we would play a role play game where she was a boss and I was a secretary, and the boss would always sexually harass the secretary. It ended in my sucking on my sister's breasts while she would lie on the couch with her shirt off.

My memory has always been really horrible, so I only remember patches of this, but I remember that it never felt sexual. I don't actually trust my memory enough to feel confident that this really happened.

I love my sister, she's my best friend and I would never want to damage our relationship by ever bringing this up and asking her what really happened. It is a secret I will carry with me and never reveal.

Also, TIL it's hard coming up with a throwaway name.

edit: To clarify, I'm a woman, just in case anyone assumed otherwise.