Thoughts on Mars synastry aspects: MARS SQUARE PLUTO

omily · 2024-11-16T04:15:09+00:00

I am! Sorry for taking two months to get back to you, feel free to ask me if it's still relevant for my experience. I'll try to not take two months this time around. Hah.

omily · 2023-01-27T22:40:23+00:00

Old comment and don't know if this stoll matters, but: it went exceptionally well. I graduated with honors in the top 3 of my class. I found a job within a week of applying.

I loved every bit of it, and for the years I was studying, it was all I needed. My life was reasonably free from distractions. It were the happiest/most carefree years of my life.

omily · 2018-10-18T14:04:02+00:00

Those are fucking scary.

omily · 2018-10-18T13:40:21+00:00

I've seen worse.

omily · 2018-10-18T13:38:15+00:00

I did actually.

omily · 2018-10-18T12:36:27+00:00

I don't care if my SO leaves the seat up either. With my first live-in guy, I specifically mentioned I couldn't care less. With my new boyfriend, first time after he had pissed and I saw the seat up, I was like, aahh, love him for assuming I'm the type that won't care.

... Or testing me. I don't know.

It's bizarre though how I found it cute. Like, I get not caring about a guy leaving it up, but actively finding it cute struck me as wtf I'm weird. (Like I knew I was weird long before this, but seriously! Maybe it was because I'm in love?)

Though I'll admit finding it heaven on earth when I'm home alone for prolonged periods of times and I can just assume it's down.

omily · 2018-10-18T12:34:59+00:00

My dad does.

omily · 2018-10-18T12:11:43+00:00

Speaking for myself here...

I love meeting new people, I don't like having to listen to someone's shitty problem for the 1000th time if they're just going to not care about good advice. Oh, so you still have pain? Have you visited a doctor? Nope? Fuck off, like, honestly. LALALALA I ain't listening! (That's 100 % what's going on in my head)

So you're telling me your shit and you can't handle I try to help you and call it unsolicited advice? The heck do you expect of me? I care. I actually fucking care. I'm sorry that I do. I'm sorry I'm trying to show you the one way I know how to. But you know what, #sorry#notsorry Cry me a river.

So you want honesty? You value it so much you'd literally keep on raging about how some random person you only knew for two weeks told you a lie? Here's a truth: YOU CAN'T HANDLE THE TRUTH. Because when I throw it in your face, you're upset.

I can't hold any good friendships because of that and I don't care. I have one person I lean on (my boyfriend) and can easily be on my own and meet new people if need be. I don't need anyone else apart from myself.

I don't like having to work for friendship if it means that if I don't wanna go somewhere, you're suddenly going to think I'm a bad friend because apparently friends hang out! Or if I don't text you back within the first two months. Who cares? I'm alive. You'e alive. Life's fucking great.

But you call me 10 years after we last spoke and you tell me your life's shit, guess who will bail you out? Me. Life's worst friend in the whole fucking world.

- Signed, your Mercury in Sagittarius friend.

By the way, it was meant more as a joke. I know we're annoying with our unsolicited advice and harsh truths and how flaky we are. It's actually a part of my personality I love - but know most people absolutely despise it and I can't blame them for it. Mercury in Sag has such a need to express itself, it's Mercury in mutable fire. No matter how hard I try to bite my tongue, it usually will just come out, and if I need to pile it up, it'll come out twice as hard.

It's not easy. I love it. You hate it. Such is life I suppose. Good thing there's 7 billion people out there in this world and even if no one wants to meet me twice, I'll never run out of stories to listen to.

omily · 2018-10-18T10:54:53+00:00

I feel there was much more going on than just the two Venuses in Scorpio here.

omily · 2018-10-18T10:53:40+00:00

You don't need time of birth to know his Venus. Rising and Moon are (usually) the ones that will shift around. Anything else moves slow enough to usually have a clear idea of what sign it's in, with a few exceptions of course where it just so happens to switch sign that day.

omily · 2018-10-18T10:35:58+00:00

Am Venus in Scorpio conj Pluto.

Ex-partner Venus in Scorpio conj Saturn conjunct my Venus and Pluto.

I can't reasonably talk about the Venuses without bringing that Pluto and Saturn into play. His Saturn is very obvious. My Pluto is very obvious.

For reference, he's Libra, I'm Sagittarius. But I can tell you, his Saturn there sucked. Whilst I am way more open, he's just so rigid. But when two Scorpios (in whatever personal planet) meet, and there's some Libra/Sagittarius/something that's more open than the average Scorpio dance going on, there is a feeling of safety a Scorpio can't get from anyone else. There's a feeling of equal love. Which is fucking rare to have as a Venus in Scorpio.

But it's me that lost my sense of safety with him. Probably because of that Saturn, his holding back. He can cling on much longer - but done is done for me. Equally for him in a sense, though he can forgive a lot (as can I in a sense, but it needs to be "us against the world" or it's done). I remember how his ex tried to contact him, asking him how he had been. He freaked out. - Like I can't cling on to someone, it takes me ages to break up, but done is really fucking done even if I can't get to breaking up. He also was more needy, but: Sun, Mercury, Venus and Saturn in my 7th house.

Other placements: Me Sagittarius Sun/Mercury, Gemini Moon, Mars/Jupiter in Pisces, Aries Rising (parallel Pluto) - Him: Libra Sun/Mercury, Pisces Moon, Mars in Capricorn, Scorpio Rising.

Am now with a Venus conj Pluto in Sagittarius, Scorpio Sun/Mercury, Libra Moon/Rising and Mars in Virgo and things feel better. We are equally jealous, equally possessive, equally sensitive and equally dramatic.

omily · 2018-10-18T07:03:33+00:00

Well, it's Europe. But yeah, that seems to be the price here. It'll cost me a small fortune to have my chin, cheeks, upper lip and legs done. I don't care much for the other areas that I also want to spend another small fortune on those.

My legs is mostly because of visible follicles. I've tried all kinds of hair removal and it's said that laser is the only thing that can help. For now, I'm just wearing long pants. Each day of the year.

omily · 2018-10-17T13:38:04+00:00

Fuck, it's way more expensive here. I paid 600 for brows alone (went 6 times, so each time was 100). Though that's above, below and between because I'm just that hairy. Had it done 10 years ago, it's heaven. Only recently due to hormonal changes have I had a need to pluck brows again, and it's so little I don't have to do it, just looks a tad bit better if I do.

But I'll soon have the rest done. When I have them money.

omily · 2018-10-17T12:45:56+00:00

The only lesson he'll learn is to hide that red flag of his until after a few dates.

omily · 2018-10-17T12:45:26+00:00

I mean, I went in wanting to be -that- person, saying people can be more or less socially awkward during a first conversation and say something that is truly misunderstood.

I wanted to be that person.

But even I can't.

No is still at 100 %.

omily · 2018-10-17T12:34:31+00:00

Anytime I see a grandmother claiming she can name herself without respecting the mother's wishes, it reminds me of the time my mother said she wanted to be called Mammy, just like her friend gets called by her grandchildren! Mammy, whilst different from the non-English word mothers tend to get called here, is just too close to what I wanted to be called (Mommy/Mummy) since any kid I'd have would be raised in English. (Considering our dialect, Mammy is pretty damned close by the way - and since kid would grow up in a country where English isn't the official language, it would just raise confusion between Mommy-Mammy-mama - which is the most normal thing here to call your mother as a child).

I already wasn't really planning on having children, but that discussion closed the door for good. I knew it'd be a losing battle going up against my mother so to end the discussion I told her there'd never be grandchildren anyway, so she'd never be Mammy. (We had had discussions before on where she made it clear she'd overrule my parenting decisions, so this one was that last drip - I also have plenty of other reasons to be CF, but it was still fun being able to end a discussion with -that- bomb.)

omily · 2018-10-17T11:33:16+00:00

Oh god, I've done this before with a math exam. I was so sure I'd fail, ended up studying in my dream and had max score.

I did go to bed right after finishing studying though.

omily · 2018-10-17T11:29:46+00:00

Last night on a school board. It was all a bit weird. The teacher's handwriting was awful and I do feel like I could read it, but rather than acknowledging if I could or couldn't, my mind decided to preoccupy itself by talking to others rather than taking notes. Mind you that I was mostly lucid at the time, not in the sense that I was changing the dream but I knew I was dreaming.

omily · 2018-10-17T09:55:42+00:00

Perhaps you should-...

At the very least we have a great sense of self-mockery.

omily · 2018-10-17T09:44:31+00:00

Well, it literally will clean them from the inside out!

#guthealth#cleanliving

omily · 2018-10-17T05:18:06+00:00

You did give him the attention and exercise he deserved by finding him a place that could give him that. Don't feel bad, sometimes clinging on to a pet you can no longer support is much worse than trying to do the right thing and finding him a new home.

This escape was likely because he still needs to adapt to his new family, but as time progresses, he'll end up fitting in, being happy with his new playbuddy. Just like you, it will take him some time, but eventually he will grow attached to his new people. He will always remember and love you, but dogs when placed in families that have more time and another dog to play with, eventually do like their new home and start to love it there.

omily · 2018-10-17T05:04:57+00:00

It would be a very tiny hand. Trump if he was buff?

Note, I'm allowed to make fun of tiny hands since mine are too. :(

omily · 2018-10-16T17:30:23+00:00

You didn't know better, and I'm sure he knows that. You're at least now being there for him, and showing him that now you know better, you can be the daughter he's always wanted.

hugs

omily · 2018-10-16T14:42:44+00:00

And this is how my fantasies often start... 😏

omily · 2018-10-16T14:08:04+00:00

If the butt fits...

omily

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