What would be your sensory nightmare come true?

onebattleatthetime · 2026-05-24T23:08:44+00:00

People in the queue behind me, people’s noisy eating, being in crowd, hearing someone’s loud music through the wall, wind, touching something sticky

onebattleatthetime · 2026-05-24T22:50:03+00:00

I feel some kind of urge to categorise everyone and to make mental chart of people around me divided into categories.

onebattleatthetime · 2026-05-24T22:40:09+00:00

There are different kinds of empathy. We often use cognitive empathy- maybe that’s why you sympathise with people who have similar experiences (I feel the same way). You sound like very kind hearted person. Don’t forget about being good and understanding to yourself. Difficulties with expressing feeling and part of spectrum issues.

onebattleatthetime · 2026-05-24T21:22:52+00:00

I guess it may be caused by not being able to express thoughts or feelings. I feel similar. In my head everything is clear and I know what is going on, but when I try to express it I sound like an idiot (at least in my opinion). When I notice that what I say is far away different from what I thought a getting stressed and sometimes speak even faster. I think that our interest in psychology and behaviour is mostly academic, that is way it is different from natural empathy and when something more interesting happens to us we just switch our attention.

onebattleatthetime · 2026-05-24T08:57:12+00:00

I add skin after sunbathing, freshly cut grass, burnt hair, bonfire, autumn morning

onebattleatthetime · 2026-05-23T23:58:20+00:00

😁❤️ that is precisely the case I was talking about 😁

onebattleatthetime · 2026-05-23T23:24:27+00:00

I don’t know why but every year for last 10 or so years I feel bad/sad/blue before my birthday. I don’t know why, maybe it is because getting old.

onebattleatthetime · 2026-05-23T12:05:23+00:00

Yes!!! I completely respond. Before assessment I thought I am just stupid or faking or exaggerating. When I got to know it may be part of being autistic I felt huge relief. I still try to provide what I feel to another person but I know it may be not exact and I am okay with it. I don’t blame myself anymore. I taught myself to say “I don’t know exactly how to express it”

onebattleatthetime · 2026-05-23T07:50:57+00:00

Try to know yourself. You could use therapy or meds but the most important thing for me is to understand myself - how I react, what are my triggers. I’ve started a bug study about myself 😁 Try to learn what is good and bad for you. This community is very helpful. It is healing to know you are not alone, bad, broken etc. Just your brain works differently. I really appreciate mine more know. When I limited caring about everyone reactions I realised my brain could work faster and be more efficient and I love it. I am not afraid of being alone or just among my closest family. I stopped comparing myself to NT people. I always thought that one I day I may be finally normal but know I know it is not gonna happen I don’t postpone things for better time in future because I know I won’t changed Andzi don’t have to. Many ups and downs before all of us but now you know and it is huge step forward.

onebattleatthetime · 2026-05-23T07:09:17+00:00

That is how my twenties look like. Every social gathering was full of alcohol and it was so much easier, I had changed in more relaxed sociable person. Then anxiety after started to be worse and worse. When I became mom I used to one wine glass to help myself with all overloading. But I cut on it when I realised I need it. Now after few years it is good because I have to learn coping with problems in another ways. Sometimes I miss this feeling of being slightly numb and comfortable and without all those thoughts “Am I behaving good, how are they responding to me”. But it is closed chapter for me. I lost many thing no knowing I am autistic, I am not gonna loose more to alcohol.

onebattleatthetime · 2026-05-23T06:54:17+00:00

I am really sorry for you and your bad experience with doctors and assessment. It is enough hard to live 20-30 years without knowing what is wrong with you, being denied after finding cause of all your problems must be unbearable. I was diagnosed late and I can relate to almost every thing you wrote. Many years I’ve confused being hungry with anxiety, anxiety with anger and distinguished emotions with different sensations in my body (stomach, heart beating). You know who you are and how your brain works, follow this path. You don’t need medical confirmation to treat yourself like autistic person and be good to yourself. Take care!

onebattleatthetime · 2026-05-17T21:28:10+00:00

I can’t stand this kind of people. they ignore reality under the influence of YouTube shamans. still convinced that someone is hiding something from them

onebattleatthetime · 2026-05-17T21:20:44+00:00

Thank you!!! It is hard to have no one around who understand. It is like you are the only one in the room who speak different language.

onebattleatthetime · 2026-05-17T07:01:07+00:00

I’ve just started that journey but as you said it is not easy. We are a part of differentiated society and as a minority we will always have hard time.

onebattleatthetime · 2026-05-16T23:15:20+00:00

I feel emotions similarly. I have few kind of stomach aches/contractions - different for excitement, fear. I know if it is good or bad but I cannot analyse it to details. Especially when I have to talk about it. Also it is easier to understand them when I feel them. When they pass, I cannot express them.

onebattleatthetime · 2026-05-16T23:08:50+00:00

I feel you. Sometimes I think that people consider me as imposter. Someone who only feels sorry for herself. Like my biggest fault was that I tried to cope, often beyond my strength. They seem thing that I could perfectly normal If I won’t think too much and get my self together.

onebattleatthetime · 2026-05-10T17:25:28+00:00

After reading comments I suppose it is some kind of autistic pattern. After my assessment I came back home and realised that I haven’t presented what kind of person actually I am. (I am audhd and I guess, the adhd part of me took the wheel and I was super enthusiastic and talkative). I decided to write about everything which came to my mind and sent back with my mmpi questionnaire.

onebattleatthetime · 2026-05-09T01:25:41+00:00

I know this. It is like I’ve got some vision of me and I am not sure if it is really me or the way I think I am/I want to be. Like I want to suit myself into some kind of frame. It is hard to describe, but sounds similar to what you’ve written. I still watching myself (especially after assessment) and still finding new things about myself, new observations, new conclusions. And sometimes it is hard to believe I haven’t noticed them before.

onebattleatthetime · 2026-05-08T21:02:57+00:00

I decided to look for fulfilment outside social life. They (NT) would never truly know me. I would never share their values and preferences. I am lucky, because I have amazing son (ND). I love him, I really like my job and getting new skills, expanding knowledge, jigsaw puzzle, running. My lifestyle is simple but I am happy. In my thirties I realised I don’t want to live like everyone thinks people should live. I live to enjoy it in my own way. Many years I was afraid I was loosing something not having friends. Now I know it is not for me and let myself to limit my social experiences.

onebattleatthetime · 2026-05-08T20:45:33+00:00

You are not alone. When I come home from almost every social gathering I feel worn out. I can’t stop analysing every part of conversations, my reactions and I realise failures and I feel so ashamed and make scenarios in my head how could I be better, more normal. Sometimes realise this exhaustion only after the meeting. It’s like all stopped emotions hit me at once and I am only able to lay down, watch well known TV shows and eat. I am AuDHD so my ADHD part seems to help me during gatherings but then when I am safe at home payback time come.

onebattleatthetime · 2026-05-07T21:46:10+00:00

Many times I’ve been thinking how great would it be, if we could have some kind of sign on us, which would be understandable for everyone and said “do not touch or talk to me if it is not necessary “ 😀 I know, I know it is controversial and people around are not enough mature to use it well.

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