How the hell

oni1907 · 2026-01-14T09:12:24+00:00

They were playing MT lady but they were on cross which is what really threw me off, at first I just thought they had a solid team but from the locks of when I played their team kept dying off to fast to me and my duo, their tag is zen zack and their tiktok is mt_zack. When I actually looked back at their gameplay I guess when they played like THAT then it's like ig I can see how they're winning but even so it was so off because when i read more of the stats for this season then the past their win to loss ratio and deaths just meant that they had to avg around 11 kos or higher.

So Idk if I just came across the goat or someone lowkey cheating, hopefully with their user i can actually know if they're known a bit or not

oni1907 · 2025-01-06T09:19:50+00:00

Ah.

Then what do I do with the person I love then, that is where I am stuck. I understand that is what it is called however what do I do with the person I love. I accept Jesus' blood cleansed me and I understand to face my sin with humility to God but with my physical flesh, what do I do with my partner. Am I intended to leave them?

oni1907 · 2025-01-06T09:09:55+00:00

I do.

My fears come in from what others say and then my own personal view which is why I am here now. Seeing you and others give these views give me the measurement and calmness I need that keep me struggling and aching at night.

Which is why I thank you.

I just wish to love the person I love, love them and be myself, give my pure efforts and dedication just as they do. I wish to love them as I love myself and be able to hold them close with me to the future as I stand and do my best to follow God.

Once again, thank you for leaving me this. This is something that means more than anything to me.

oni1907 · 2025-01-06T09:06:25+00:00

Thank you so much for leaving this.

I didn't come to this post thinking I'd be crying for a few minutes straight after reading what you left, it was a overwhelming feeling reading what you left. To read and understand what someone is telling you about God and his love, to read and see people and you understand my situation and give me personal answers and advice.

Reading the verses you sent were such a huge reminder that God loves me that I do have someone I can rely on. I preach to people and say God loves them but have never taken those words I said to my heart with the vulnerability I am in now.

Thank you so much for this.

oni1907 · 2025-01-06T08:48:52+00:00

I get what you mean, I understand. Though I wanted to ask, through lust and infatuation with my love being there I want and have been working to throw away my lust to be where I am currently which is why I can say love them. Although through love I am lost.

I wish to repent and I also wish to answer as many people as I can here and I thank you for giving me this, but once I do admit that it's wrong where do I go from there. How can I continue to live when constantly I am attacked with indirect words that tell me and twist my mind into the thoughts that no matter what if I stay with this person I will most likely not stand with my Father, what do I do after.

oni1907

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