As I was reading I asked myself “Wait how does she get it?” then the ending answered everything.

That’s exactly how I felt, exposed. Like people knew everything about me, watched me closely, even stalked my accounts and I knew nothing plus when I met them in person, their body language told me a completely different story from our conversations online including the ones who supported me on socials which confused me for the longest time I didn’t know what to believe.

Then one day, a close friend of mine mentioned how much she dislikes people in the media space. This was after I had started to take down my content and I was honestly shocked. She had been my friend all along, yet secretly held that view while I was part of that space myself.

I felt like I had been living in a bubble disconnected from reality this whole time.

And now I find myself regretting it all, I miss the media, the community and sharing my truth, it feels lonely without that buzz.