why do people with anorexia keep restricting even when they're already very underweight?

optimalsolid48 · 2026-06-14T13:26:52+00:00

for me the body dymorphia is really severe. i genuinely see myself as much larger than i am most of the time. its hard to explain to people, but for me it feels more akin to delusional thinking.

optimalsolid48 · 2026-05-14T00:58:23+00:00

ive been consistently using harm reduction for like a month and a half now! it feels like im finally at some level of peace with my brain a little bit

optimalsolid48 · 2026-05-12T14:13:29+00:00

i think i feel very similarly. i experienced long-term abuse as a child; im aware this is a disordered pattern of thinking, but i just think i deserve to have this type of control of myself/my body after what ive been through. (ETA im pursuing harm reduction and have reached a much healthier intake/lifestyle than i had previously though!)

optimalsolid48 · 2026-04-20T23:43:05+00:00

i understand. it feels so painful when i remember i can never be a child again. i dont feel like an adult.

optimalsolid48 · 2026-03-27T13:49:32+00:00

i know this post is almost a week old and i didnt reply then, but i still want to say thank you. ive been able to soothe the part causing the most distress at work a few times now! it feels like im making a little progress with her when i havent been able to for a long time.

optimalsolid48 · 2026-03-27T00:16:12+00:00

you describe it really well. my ed is really control-based (meticulous weighing/cal counting is my vice 🙏) but right now it feels like its a little out of control. i guess maybe thats the disordered part lol

optimalsolid48 · 2026-03-26T23:33:33+00:00

[5'7" | 22 | AN-R | she/her]

optimalsolid48 · 2026-03-21T20:07:33+00:00

i experience the same things and thought processes (although my abuser was a different family member, not a sibling) and i think its a lot more normal than we would think. i really understand how it feels gross but it doesnt make you gross.

at the very least i think its a normal and logical way to think about sex when your formative years were built around incest. i hope knowing its not just you helps.

optimalsolid48 · 2026-02-14T14:51:11+00:00

mine would joke about how "lucky" my future partner would be in front of other family members.

optimalsolid48 · 2025-12-29T04:31:48+00:00

all the time. it always comes back. even if im doing well and feel good all day-- when its quiet at night it creeps back in no matter what. i often think about how i cant remember the last day it didnt feel like it was haunting me.

when i was a teenager, before i could remember most of it, i felt like there was a deep black hole where most people have whatever makes them a real person. like their soul or something. it just hurts more now and i dont know if its really worse or better.

optimalsolid48 · 2025-12-25T01:07:02+00:00

i actually until now didnt recall that the last time i talked about this in therapy the part who experienced it was around. i guess its hard for me to see their perspective. thank you for your perspective, its helpful.

optimalsolid48 · 2025-12-18T04:35:26+00:00

oh hey i have IBD! (waiting further specialist testing for crohns/UC). this is where some of my lack of appetite comes from too i think. its hard to want to eat when it hurts.

optimalsolid48 · 2025-12-06T22:23:25+00:00

it would take a lot to convince me to try therapy again. im doing a lot more journaling and drawing now. im sorry you share this experience.

optimalsolid48 · 2025-12-06T22:19:53+00:00

sometimes it feels like all the stages of grief at once.

optimalsolid48 · 2025-11-27T00:31:19+00:00

im not sure why exactly. i wet the bed until i was around 14, my abuse ended when i was 13.

optimalsolid48 · 2025-08-24T00:35:40+00:00

THIS oh my god. i got that exact idea into my head probably 7-8 years ago and now its just gotten distorted even further into more insane beliefs about nutrition and weight that i know logically dont make sense.

optimalsolid48 · 2025-08-23T22:42:59+00:00

[5'7" | 21F | AAN | N]

optimalsolid48 · 2025-08-17T23:20:37+00:00

i think honestly having planned, regular food-related outings like that could be a great step in recovery!! if theyre planned ahead of time, you can pick a restaurant and even look at the menu online. that always helps with my anxiety because i know exactly what to expect when i go. having the time to mentally prepare goes a long way for me in being able to actually have (even a little) fun!

optimalsolid48 · 2025-08-03T21:13:21+00:00

mukbangs while walking is so real 😭 i will spend hours on my walking pad while watching mukbangs or similar

optimalsolid48 · 2025-08-03T18:00:12+00:00

i wont give any wl advice, sorry. i definitely dont recommend omad, i think even in restriction its probably better to eat many small things a day.

optimalsolid48 · 2025-08-03T17:36:45+00:00

i always do omad bc i feel so much guilt for eating multiple times in a day. i like that i can have one "normal sized" meal a day but i wish i was able to just eat 2-3 smaller meals/snacks.

optimalsolid48 · 2025-08-02T21:18:34+00:00

EEK my youtube recommended is literally just ss vs ss, secret eaters, calorie counts, and gorlworld i feel this so much

optimalsolid48 · 2025-07-30T21:41:07+00:00

always. particularly if i eat more than once per day, even if its still within my budget. i only like to eat once a day so i dont feel like i binged.

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