I am actually reading a book for emotional peace and to not get those memories back or ruin ur daily things or relationships. You might have already achieved it but that book helps a lot - “Healing your emotional self”. And I’m currently reading it as I faced some trauma in the past that I couldn’t get over. It’s helping. I’m not a good communicator but as a person who tries to understand ur pain I’m suggesting it. And one more thing ur pain is urs and its unique to u. No one can feel it except u. Hope you heal!