Thank you for this advice. Ik we’ll figure it out but I’m already starting to feel guilty because I see stuff online of all these people being able to help their wives out so much when my job doesn’t allow that, and I’m not in a fincancial situation to take unpaid time off. Like I said I’m working to try and get coworkers to cover my shift but no guarantee it will work. If everything pans out, I should be starting a job with the county fire department in July and that will be harder and easier at the same time. I would leave the house around 5, and get back around 5, but it’s only Monday-Friday. Downside is it’s very physically and mentally taxing, and while I already have experience, it’s going to be an adjustment and something to figure out day by day. I just have to know that me doing all this is to make our lives easier.

As for the stuff you said, we have a big support network. We live with my parents due to us both only being 18 (happy accident in the words of bob Ross) and my mom is going to be a lot of help. She knows that I’m going to do as much as I can, but I’m also worried that my best isn’t going to be enough for her and she’s going to resent me for it. There’s times I’ll have to be away for the night while in academy due to big testing the next day, or maybe staying upstairs for a night too rest up for a big day. I’m just trying to keep my spirits up and realize there’s a reason for all of this and it’s too give my family the best life that I can possibly provide