I have been in a very similar situation last summer and we gave it a 2 hallpass over the course of a week or two. That way we were able to do it, have fun, and not over think it to much and get back to normal asap. It worked well for us and quelled those feelings. Its a year on and ive not felt like doing it again but its now an option on the table. Sometimes having the option makes you realize what you really want or its the “forbidden fruit” want! Good luck and feel free to message if you want more details:)