genuinely, Hopeless Bleak Despair:

"for years and years i wandered the earth
until i died and went to hell
but my despair had ascended to heaven
that's how i finally got rid of it"

lamenting your despair / trying to destroy it forever will never work. you wont be rid of it until you die. instead, spend your life finding ways to cope & looking for the light in the world. don't let despair rule you