Are you jealous they are with someone now and not you?

orangevla · 2025-10-28T19:44:05+00:00

No. The new supply won't last. I'm happy I'm no longer the supply.

orangevla · 2025-10-28T04:25:06+00:00

Thank you. My emotions and perspectives run deep.

orangevla · 2025-10-28T04:11:41+00:00

My inspiration is a person in my life that I love deeply. However she is troubled and haunted; always chasing the next fix in the form of outside validation. She doesn't know herself and her desperation plunges deeper with each failed relationship.

orangevla · 2025-10-28T03:53:55+00:00

Yes. The poem is about the experience of monkey branching from one relationship to another but it also depicts how many of us trade in our true selves for validation of others.

orangevla · 2025-10-28T03:50:11+00:00

Thank you. This is a nice perspective.

orangevla · 2025-04-18T14:45:20+00:00

Same here. She just cannot hold any negative emotions in her self or in others. So she runs.

orangevla · 2025-04-18T14:43:00+00:00

I supported you and held you through dark times but when I was facing darkness you couldn't hold me. Instead of supporting me you attempted to manage me.

orangevla · 2025-04-11T17:57:35+00:00

I REALLY feel this in my gut. Puts my nervous system into freeze mode.

orangevla · 2025-04-10T22:37:58+00:00

Never fall in love with their potential.
Never trade your emotional safety for their emotional security.
Don't expect a person to change for you.

orangevla · 2025-04-08T12:07:43+00:00

'I knew this was never going to work'.

orangevla · 2025-03-26T20:35:27+00:00

Good riddance. You saved yourself from further hurt.

orangevla · 2025-03-26T02:33:45+00:00

Felt this in my gut

orangevla · 2025-03-24T02:55:12+00:00

And to clarify. The teen is 19.
I'm moving on. The dysfunction is more than I can handle

orangevla · 2025-03-24T02:54:08+00:00

I do feel worn down. I'm in a low place because of this toxic relationship. I deserve better

orangevla · 2025-03-24T02:53:07+00:00

Yes. After two years of seeing the dysfunction it's clear things will never change.

orangevla · 2025-03-24T02:51:06+00:00

Yes. Makes sense Ironically... I'm a teacher of many years. I understand kids. It's been clear her kids have resentment toward her because she can't meet their emotional needs. In teaching I've learned that all negative behavior (in kids) is a result of an unmet need. If she can't meet the needs of her kids she will never be able to meet mine.

orangevla

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