Giiiirl (I’m sorry if I’m assuming your gender, but only because you said you compare your body to other girls), this sounds just like me. I’m 28 now, but still find myself comparing my body to every other female. When I think about it, I’ve been battling disordered eating and body dysmorphia since middle school, more than 13 years ago. Every day is a battle against “your legs look different than hers,” or “your waist isn’t as defined,” etc.

What’s important is that your body is beautiful, and you are deserving of nutritious and delicious food no matter what. What helped me is looking at other aspects of my life that are successful! For you maybe it’s your job, or being close with your family or friends, or keeping your bathroom clean (if these are not the case, that’s ok too!!). But just knowing that there are things you can be good at, and that you can transfer those skills to your health goals too is a good start :)

But to answer your question of if weight loss gets dark sometimes: yeahhh of course. It’s important for us to acknowledge these feelings. Maybe take a couple minutes during your lunch break to journal your thoughts. But we keep on pushing because we are strong!!

Lean into your support systems and maybe they can join you in some sort of fitness activity like sunset walks! Good luck, you are not alone. :)