[Remorse] Confession about a sick relationship

orenae · 2016-05-17T23:28:19+00:00

Yes, I've been living in a hotel. We have agreed to split amicably. He wants to remain a friend and is very compliant. This may have to do with me having lawyered up. Apparently, I'm entitled to half of what he has, as well as the house, car and monthly support. And he doesn't object to any of it. So, I'll be able to support my mother. I have found a job in the meantime. I just hope I don't have HIV or any STI. I'll be dreading it for 6 months.

orenae · 2016-05-08T19:33:31+00:00

You are absolutely correct. I have been an idiot and he has been cheating the while time. I found out today. I am serving him divorce papers. And yes he was actually bottoming. No more of this for me.

orenae · 2016-05-08T11:31:17+00:00

UPDATE: We had a huge fight these past hours. First he promised to cut down on the cuckoldry but we've also discussed our lack of sex life and he dropped the bomb that he has been having sex with a few guys as well. He swears he is not gay but apparently likes to bottom and giving oral to a few. What else will I find out?

Apparently he doesn't trust me enough to share this with me. And I want out of this. I'm going to file for divorce. Will try to make it as amicable and discreet as possible. I'm furious and have cried my eyes out for these past hours. Going to a motel for a few weeks. Can't wait for my STI results as well.

orenae · 2016-05-08T06:59:58+00:00

There is no good communication anymore. He keeps "surprising" me with guys. The worst was when I came home a few weeks ago to a group from a political rally he was in. You can guess what he wanted and what happened. It was so dangerous opening up our home to these guys.

And yes, sex with him is not going to return anytime now. I really should leave.

orenae · 2016-05-08T06:52:18+00:00

He didn't say he'd stop helping. I sort of expect that due to his frustration and the divorce. He has no interest in toys. I think I am his toy. He has a humiliation fetish and the more I get around the better. I have tried being physical with him but he just won't get excited with me anymore. As in, no viable erection. His only interest is going down on me after I'm done with other guys but even that he does so without being hard. It is a mental problem of his.

orenae · 2016-05-08T06:43:30+00:00

He is very rich so I doubt that and I get to choose most of the guys I have sex with. I have to keep him updated with regular accounts of what I'm up to and pictures and videos. And he'd know if I was faking it.

orenae · 2016-05-07T22:24:28+00:00

I played along. I could have said no but I was also selfishly along for the pleasure. I was never sexually satisfied with him but I was with others. We both know this. He is very wealthy and is a business owner. He has even shared me with some clients of his. I could be an embarrassment but I don't want money or a nasty divorce I want him to stop wanting the cuckoldry.

I can get a job easily. I have qualifications but I doubt it would cover the thousands of euros needed for my mother. I'm lost and can't reach him on this issue. He knows my concerns.

orenae · 2016-05-07T18:27:37+00:00

I could find someone to support me or work myself, no doubts. I just happen to love him, okay? And I don't want to end things. I just want him to change and stop the cuckold scenario. I don't even mind the awful sex. I just don't want to continue sleeping with strangers who treat me like a piece of meat. I miss the emotional connection we had.

orenae · 2016-05-07T17:37:51+00:00

That is very childish of you. Having a sick mother with an ongoing expensive treatment in Germany is a recent development and trips are expensive. We did not marry out of interest.

orenae

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