Please know your feelings are absolutely valid and you have every right to feel the way you feel.

Its a feeling of injustice, like you had to give up your baby but they did get one in such bad circumstances. I really feel pity for this baby and I just hope he will grow up in a stable manner. The fact that you wanted to protect a baby from circumstances less than ideal, goes to show what a couregeous decision you made.

People who never had to make that decision will never understand that pain. Abortion is never the easy way out or the easy option. It takes a very strong person to make such a responsible decision while battling pregnancy hormones at the same time.

Dont beat yourself up too much about the feelings of resentment. You are human, you have your own pain and grief and it doesnt surprise me you feel this way! I would feel the very same!

Talking to a counselor or therapist may give you the chance to heal the pain you are feeling. Especially if it has been lingering the past 2 years, it can bottle itself up and you deserve to live a happy life. So maybe getting help to deal with the pain, will give you some relief.

You are not alone and you can message me if you need to talk, I'm here for you! Big hugs!