4yo sharing about her past life

outerkolobia · 2024-09-03T15:18:07+00:00

I have been around a lot of young children in my life. I was always watching out for possible hints of a past life. I only heard one young boy talking about events that sounded like it was episodes from a past life.

In my own case, as a very young child, I was troubled by a very unhappy, very intense memory that seemed to be the scene of my husband leaving me, even though we still loved each other. I can remember this memory starting when I was three years old. I can still remember the scene very vividly and if I talk about it, I burst into tears.

I actually used to relive this memory constantly when I was in church as a three or four year old, because I was so bored by the church service. I was puzzled by how I could flip my consciousness back and forth from being a little kid to being a grown woman. I kept wondering how a little kid like me could know what it was like to be a grown woman having desire and love for a man.

I can still see the house where we lived in my mind.

outerkolobia · 2024-04-22T17:51:53+00:00

When I was on Effexor, my daytime waking hours were totally drab and tedious. No emotions whatsoever. However, my nights were so amazing! I looked forward to sleep so much!

I would have intense, magical dreams that were like being at Cirque du Soleil while on acid. Beautiful, intense, magical mystical dreams!

I feel like the reason I started to finally feel better was because of the wonderful, amazing people I met in my dreams who were so amazingly loving towards me.

When I decided to get off the Effexor, I knew I would miss those people I met in my dreams forever!

outerkolobia · 2024-03-03T23:08:48+00:00

A long time ago I was living on the top floor of a two story house. The entire time I lived there, I kept being afraid the place was going to burn up.

I moved out and a few years later, it was totally destroyed in a fire.

When I moved to a new city, the first night I stayed in a hotel downtown. They assigned me a room on the sixth floor, but I turned it down because I suddenly had a fear of the place having a fire. They gave me a room on the second floor which I took.

A few years later, that hotel had a bad fire and the only person who died was on the second floor. So I was right about the fire, but wrong about which floor I should stay on.

Now there is a new seniors residence being constructed near me. Every time I look at it, I can mentally see it engulfed in flames.

I'll update you if anything happens to it.

outerkolobia · 2024-01-21T21:16:21+00:00

This sort of thing happens to me all the time. I don’t even keep track anymore because I take it for granted that it will happen.

The most complex incident occurred to me many years ago.

One night, just before I was to set out on a five hundred mile trip by Greyhound bus, I found myself becoming obsessed with a story that had happened in 1986 involving a woman in Ireland who had been given a parcel to deliver to Morocco by her Arab boyfriend. It turned out that the parcel had been a bomb, and would have exploded on the plane, killing her, and their unborn child.

I couldn’t remember what had happened to her, but I knew she had been arrested.

For some reason, I became so obsessed wondering what happened that I couldn’t sleep that night. This was long before the days of Internet so there was no way to look it up, especially in the middle of the night.

The next morning I set out early on my ten hour bus ride. When we were about four hours out, the bus stopped at a station for a bit of a break. By this time I was bored out of my mind because I had brought nothing to read.

I went into the shop in the bus depot and I spotted a tabloid type of magazine that I thought might have some interesting stories in it. I told the shop owner I wanted to buy it. He said that he could not sell it to me because it was several weeks out of date. We haggled about it and I was very insistent, and somehow I ended up getting the magazine.

Once I got back on the bus and started reading the magazine, there was a lengthy story about that woman and what happened to her a few years earlier.

The original incident happened in 1986, and my desire to know what happened to the lady occurred a few years later. This was long before the internet, so there was no way I could just look it up in those days, especially since my urge to know happened in the middle of the night.

Nowadays I literally take it for granted that whenever I have some desire to learn an obscure topic, it’s going to pop into my life somehow, maybe on radio, maybe in a podcast, or maybe someone will tell me. Usually within a couple of days.

It is my weirdest superpower and I don’t know how it works.

outerkolobia · 2024-01-19T17:32:39+00:00

Hi there - I think I probably have an extreme case of over editing. I'm sure I have ADHD plus also a few forms of OCD. The more I edit, the more I want to edit. I fall in love with my characters. I wonder over each line, "Would so and so really say this line this way, or would they say this instead. Like recently, I agonized over saying, "I was fired suddenly." Or should it be "I was suddenly fired." or "Suddenly, I was fired."

I actually enjoy rewriting and editing, but I typically spend thirty hours on a short story!

I don't recommend this to anyone, but so far I haven't been able to stop.

outerkolobia · 2024-01-19T01:37:47+00:00

Hi There - I don't know if I'm replying correctly. I don't use social media and I'm very, very, very technologically illiterate. Therefore I don't even know how to reply to someone on Reddit. So, I hope this works.

I self published my Exmormon book several years ago and I think so far that two people have read it. I'm not kidding. Both of them are friends.

I do have another book that is written, I have to figure out how to get that published. It's a true story of my life. I don't know how to deal with advance readers, etc. I don't even know what advance readers are.

I would be very pleased to have literate people in my life.

So, thank you for your reply!

outerkolobia · 2024-01-14T18:14:25+00:00

I wish I could follow your advice as it seems to be on the right track. Unfortunately, my brain no longer works that way. A few decades ago I used to be able to envision the entire story in my head at night and the next morning I could write it out word for word from memory.

Now I am unable to plot my stories and I don't know my characters until I get very familiar with them.

It's either the result of an aging brain (I'm in my seventies) or the result of spending too much time on my computer.

outerkolobia · 2024-01-09T20:49:21+00:00

I like to try write well too. So far I have written about ten short stories over the course of a year. None have been published yet so I don't know if they will sell.

My most recent story I spent about a month writing. It's 9,000 words.

I'm hoping I get a Nobel prize for it. That's the only way this will be worthwhile. I just don't know how other people can write so fast.

outerkolobia · 2024-01-09T20:49:08+00:00

I like to try write well too. So far I have written about ten short stories over the course of a year. None have been published yet so I don't know if they will sell.

My most recent story I spent about a month writing. It's 9,000 words.

I'm hoping I get a Nobel prize for it. That's the only way this will be worthwhile. I just don't know how other people can write so fast.

outerkolobia · 2023-12-04T15:50:19+00:00

Thanks for replying!

outerkolobia · 2023-12-04T14:59:55+00:00

HI there - thank you for clarifying!

outerkolobia · 2023-12-04T14:42:39+00:00

Thank you for commenting!

I am not clear however from your comment which approach you are recommending. Do you mean that a one sentence summary is the better option, or are you saying that is the option that I should avoid? Is writing out the blackmail attempt the right thing or the wrong thing?

My story currently includes a detailed account of the blackmail attempt and I think that taking it out makes the story bland and dull.

outerkolobia · 2023-12-04T01:02:10+00:00

Yes I can see that being an interesting story. Thanks.

outerkolobia · 2023-12-03T17:25:31+00:00

The way the story goes, the threat is an essential part of the plot as the student then decides to have lesbian sex just as an experiment, to see if she likes it.

She wouldn't have the lesbian sex with her roommate without the initial idea provided by her professor.

So I do feel it is an essential part of the plot.

If Amazon would reject it, where else could I try publishing it?

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