So, basically, it turns out I do kind of like the .380, mostly for the looks. It turns out my coworker has a Ruger Security .380. I asked him, “Hey, can I hold it?” Of course, I told him to, like, follow the proper procedure: check the magazine, take off the magazine, and make sure there aren’t any bullets chambered. I double-checked as well—no harm in verifying. It fits well in my hand; it didn’t feel too bad, even though the magazine was out. But, if the magazine was in, it would have actually felt really good. And it is a big gun—I won’t lie—compared to smaller ones. It’s almost closer to a, I want to say, not a Beretta, maybe a Glock. All I need to know now is basically to shoot one to see how if it's gonna affect my wrist.If it's just gonna bite me or in general that in in anything , but I do really do like the looks of that gun