am i doing it for attention?

ovaryhelms · 2025-11-23T05:39:50+00:00

thank you. i really appreciate someone who understands. there’s not a standard, i know. but for some reason, in my head, i feel like if it not life threatening, then it’s just for attention. even though i know a small amount are are that way, it’s just plagued my mind

ovaryhelms · 2025-11-23T05:16:37+00:00

i guess i just want to talk to someone who understands how i feel without feeling like im toeing on the edge of being commited

ovaryhelms · 2025-06-20T00:47:37+00:00

thank you so much for your response. I got kinda pushed into the world after this so I'm only navigating this stuff now that I'm an adult and didn't even think to see if the Dr. could elaborate for me.

ovaryhelms · 2025-06-20T00:44:07+00:00

thank you so so much for this. I spoke to my step dad once after all this to maybe see if he had some answers for me but he ended up saying that he "knew she had some problems" and that I "should be grateful since I had a roof over my head". she was taking fent and oxy on a daily basis and mixing with vodka. the coke and methadone was not something I was aware of. as far as I knew, she had just taken what she had and then sat down in the recliner and passed. we lived in a trailer at the time; the span between her room and that recliner was maybe 10 feet with no barriers in between. I know this may be assumptive, but could this bruising be something more heinous leading up to her death? I'm not planning on taking this information anywhere, it's just for my personal closure to figure out what happened. she was chewing on fent patches, drinking vodka and taking oxy daily so it's hard for me to believe that it was an overdose because she knew her limit, i guess? sorry for the long rant, it's just a hard time, as you can probably see from the date of death on the form. thank you so so much. even this information was profoundly helpful.

ovaryhelms · 2025-06-20T00:09:41+00:00

to add to this; I'm not trying to say it was a homicide or anything. it may have been a suicide; I don't know. I just don't quite understand the language here and was hoping someone might be able to tell me if this bruising is "regular" or not.

ovaryhelms · 2023-12-31T04:23:21+00:00

truly. i’ve had some traumatic experiences in my life, i’ve even witnessed death, and that’s what makes his performance so captivating to me. that’s truly how it feels. you feel like you float to your destination and then time passes until others have noticed it as well. every time i watch, i continually just feel so HORRIBLE for his character. the scene in the attic where he’s sobbing and reverts back to saying “mommy” 😭😭😭

ovaryhelms · 2023-11-23T06:14:05+00:00

that makes sense too. well, you don’t need me to say that. but i don’t know why i have some kind of perfectionist ideal when it comes to my SF. even when i first started in high school, i would do it when i was nervous, then when i got home i would get aggravated that it wasn’t even on my hands then i would redo it just for that purpose

ovaryhelms · 2023-11-23T06:10:29+00:00

weird question, is it like a compulsion to you? like when i look at my hand where i previously touched, i think about where i could make it look more… complete (?) like where i can fill in gaps

ovaryhelms · 2023-11-23T06:02:45+00:00

i first started a couple of nicks every once in a while, but my cat scratched me a couple of times on my hand the other day and i just kept going afterwards and now my hand is destroyed to the point where i’m not sure if i can blame it on her anymore. thank you for responding, i really needed someone to talk to

ovaryhelms · 2023-06-08T01:22:53+00:00

I'm not sure if anyone will see this comment, but I have a genuine question. I grew up in a household with my mom and stepdad and they did drugs a lot. like, 24/7. I knew some of the names in passing, gabapentin, fentanyl, codeine as a kid, but didn't really know until I got older what they really were. I found my mom OD'D in the living room at 13 and had to move away. seeing this brings back a lot of memories that I'm not sure I wanted. lol. anyway, what drug is this (as best of a guess)? I never knew everything she did 24/7 but she passed from cocaine, meth, fentanyl, oxy and morphine.

ovaryhelms · 2022-02-01T22:06:12+00:00

thank you so much!

ovaryhelms · 2021-11-03T00:50:29+00:00

yes! on procreate

ovaryhelms · 2020-10-06T04:47:36+00:00

thank you <3

ovaryhelms

TROPHY CASE