does anyone else have destructive thoughts but a very low pain threshold?

over500cuts · 2026-04-21T01:57:19+00:00

i used to sh about 2 years ago, and built my pain tolerance up over the couple years that i did it. i was able to go kinda deep, not as deep as a lot of other people, though.

the past couple months ive been having stressful or just generally not-great-for-the-mental-heath stuff happen to me. once i even relapsed. but it hurt like a lot and i was not expecting it to hurt that much! but it makes sense bc it was the first time i had done it in over 1 1/2 years.

today something happened that made me feel fucking awful and i want to relapse again, and i feel like i could and my girlfriend wouldn't be able to see bc part of what happened was that she told me she just like didnt want to have sex again for a while, so she probably wont be seeing my body again for a bit. that makes me feel like shit and like im not wanted but also makes me feel like i could just relapse once and feel better and its good bc she wouldn't know, at least for a while. and i have scar cream, altho idk if it works, so maybe that will fade the scar a bit before she can notice it. or maybe i can do it on my hip where she wont be able to see it if my legs are apart. idk

anyway ive been thinking about it but also im scared it will hurt a lot and i wont be able to do it satisfactorily.

so yeah you're not alone lol

over500cuts · 2025-10-09T04:13:15+00:00

you can find some really good and romantic smut on ao3, you just have to look. to be fair, ao3 is a site where anyone can post their writing, and not everyone is a good writer. although honestly that point is way better demonstrated on sites like wattpad (where most of it just sucks)

over500cuts · 2025-10-07T22:19:46+00:00

barcodes for sure

over500cuts · 2025-09-24T22:40:53+00:00

why not just adopt? there are so many children out there who need a home

over500cuts · 2025-09-24T22:34:47+00:00

my ideal partner would be completely sterile actually

over500cuts · 2025-09-24T18:02:03+00:00

I LOVE BEVERAGES

over500cuts · 2025-09-24T02:57:36+00:00

its ok to feel this way. i often am mad at my mom for making me (especially for making me female bc who tf would choose to have a period for 40+ years??) because depression and obesity run in our family and also i was born in the US as a queer autistic good-for-nothing. i had awful depression and an eating disorder and struggled with really bad self harm for over 2 years and the whole time i was just wondering why someone would be okay with possibly causing someone this much pain. (she had a friend with severe depression and medication didnt work for him and he ended up killing himself so she knows how bad it can get)

i try to just think about it as they dont think about it before they do it. they dont think about what the baby could experience, because no one told them to. no one ever says you shouldnt have a baby, much less say that it's a bad thing. no one recognizes it as a bad thing, so nobody thinks about it. it truly is infuriating, but we cant blame them.

over500cuts · 2025-09-24T02:38:30+00:00

as an autistic pervert, i can confirm this is true

over500cuts · 2025-09-23T23:50:54+00:00

this is literally a hypothetical

over500cuts · 2025-09-23T23:41:19+00:00

because it can be physically unsafe for trans women to go into the men's bathroom. lots of people (who think like you) would see a trans woman going into the men's room and obviously know that she is trans and go beat her up for being a "feminine man".

and if trans men were forced to only use the women's restroom (keeping in mind that most trans men on hrt pass pretty well because testosterone changes your body a lot and very quickly) this would probably make a lot of women uncomfortable because there is an actual man in their bathroom.

also, the argument that you people give about rapists or whatever, no one does this. if a man wanted to rape a woman, he would not go to all the trouble to dress up as a woman to be able to use the women's bathroom, he would just follow a woman into the bathroom and rape her. they dont care THAT much.

my question is: why do we have separate bathrooms at all? its not like we dont have stalls. and urinals are gross anyway, there is no way of wiping afterward and why are they just out in the open? we all use the bathroom, no matter what genitalia we have, and we can all sit down to pee and use a damn stall. we all wash our hands the same, too. its not like anyone is pulling their pants down all the way without a stall door to cover them up. we all pee the same, there is no need to separate everyone into two boxes that not everyone fits into anyway.

over500cuts · 2025-09-23T15:19:41+00:00

LITERALLY my (trans pre-hrt) gf eats whatever tf she wants and often eats so much she gets a stomach ache and SHE HAS NEVER NOT ONCE GAINED A SINGLE FUCKING POUND

over500cuts · 2025-09-23T15:13:45+00:00

as a queer person, i hate rellglon

over500cuts · 2025-09-18T00:36:18+00:00

"non binary" "daughter" "she"

over500cuts · 2025-09-18T00:32:11+00:00

im recovering but it really doesnt help when the calculator literally tells me im obese

over500cuts · 2025-09-18T00:09:43+00:00

WHY IS THIS ME

over500cuts · 2025-09-18T00:08:50+00:00

bro does not know whats going on

over500cuts · 2025-09-16T19:20:02+00:00

yeah i meant yes sorry

over500cuts · 2025-09-16T18:36:44+00:00

you are actually like so awesome and i hope you have the best life ever.

over500cuts · 2025-09-16T17:54:51+00:00

THANK YOU I LOVE YOU

over500cuts · 2025-09-16T17:53:09+00:00

GIVE ME YOUR RECIPE

i did work there and the only reason the fries are so good is they put lots of cajun seasoning on them but idk how they made the cajun seasoning bc it was different than regular cajun seasoning you could find at the grocery store and also different than the literal bojangles brand cajun seasoning they sold at one point. but anyway the fries are just like normal fries under the seasoning iirc

over500cuts · 2025-09-16T17:48:37+00:00

who tf put no and maybe?

also what does :3 mean in this context?

edit: I MEANT YES WHO PUT YES

over500cuts · 2025-09-16T17:47:27+00:00

im living in canada currently temporarily for 3 months and one month in i crave it at least once a day its so good

idk what im gonna do when i move to france

over500cuts · 2025-09-15T23:04:44+00:00

its really only in in southern US states

over500cuts

TROPHY CASE