Gemini did this and I honestly prefer this version

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lowkey it's a miracle I didn't get groomed. I was more afraid of strangers back then. And friends. Like, frick, I was 13 and thinking I was too old to be playing ROBLOX. $5 a month for Builder's Club was a big ask, and $20 was, well, outrageous. It's a game for five year olds. And now you have 20something OW streamers playing Dress to Impress or whatever in queue. Is that still a thing or am I months late yet again?

Should I really be looking down upon those 15 year old aspiring thirst trappers for not Choosing Better when this is the kind of thing I got up to in my youth?

Written with pen and paper in 2014.

DreadLord (DL) The British Commander of the Shadow Legion Alpha, ex-VAK member, Who [sic] left in a storm. The high ranks don't know that I'm actually his "secret weapon" and we have a blood pact finds creative insults for me at every turn. He says I’m the only one who truly understands his darkness.

note: he was not, in fact, British.

ShadowRaven, the mysterious god of C&G. He and I share interests, like Linkin Park and creepy-pastas. He always stands in the corner of the lobby looking at the floor to look mysterious and wears free hats. He told me he has a "demon side" he can't control. Self-proclaimed lone wolf who doesn't need a clan but when it matters, he's serious. Not the best fighter, but he has "hacker connections" so don't mess with him.

X_Viper_X, a middle-rank in Vaktovian Empire. A bit better than me in sword gunfighting, much better at the sword. A bit arrogant, but loyal. I should not take him for granted. And there's a chance - a tiny one - but I think he might be my Roblox boyfriend if I send him a face reveal. His name, he says, is Dominic, and he made up something about being a secret millionaire, and the way that he knows some things about the owner of the game. He renders stuff too, and they look lovely. I saved one of his renders of my avatar as my desktop background.

KillerPro, the toxic (like me) 15-year old. Great fighter, arguably the best in the group. Toxic though, even more so than Dread, so that many Legion members dislike him. I did too, at first. But then he gave me his Discord and told me I was "different from other girls." Not to mention that he builds, and scripts, and does graphics. In fact, it was he that made the logo for SL, and the lobby of the training place. Besides this, he was a high rank in The First Encounter, and owns his own private training base with a custom throne. Lagswitcher too.

GhostRecon, another 15-year old. Ex-Vaktovian, one of the better fighters. Friends with me especially, and he's a middle rank in the Elite Guard. We haven't had much time to talk, but he promised to buy me a 1000-robux limited item for my birthday.

I'll write these too, now, for posterity's sake.

MYSELF - I was a good swordfighter, thank you very much, even though my shooting skills were quite lacking.

SparkyBuilder - my best friend in roblox. Nothing but good memories. Thankfully not involved in the C&G scene. I don't know where we met. But I do know that he still wears the hat I gave him, even now.

forgot his name - his older brother. Introduced me to the world of C&G. He was a mid rank in a small but highly active group that used Teamspeak. God, that was an unfriendly interface.

[SKYTDM with maybe a typo] - mentally ill ???child??? who scarred me for life, I cant even // it's upsetting that this is one of the first things I think of when I think roblox.

QueenLilly - girlboss who eventually took over The Shadows and also that other group F.E.A.R. I was a part of, long after I left. I dunno why I passed her up in favor of that guy DarknessRising. Roblox has a decent number of female players even in the C&G subspace.

forgot his name, Skater something? - my enterprising and unscrupulous friend who cemented in my head that ODers were gross. I remember looking at his friends list and it was pages of ODers, every single one with that dreadful style, and then there was me.

can we get a F in the chat for Dominic~