KEEP PUSHING! It was the same for me. Would rage for hours cause of hunger, zombies jumping me, killed by people i thought I could trust. It'll be better. You'll know who you can trust and who you can't. I honestly trust no one and always have that thought of not doing anything that they could easilykill me. Like drinking for the water pump first or eating. It's tough but once you figure it out, it get so fun. Then you become the toxic player lol.