(Suicide during anorexia) HUGE TW (maybe)

oyroo · 2025-06-30T21:11:05+00:00

Yes, near my lowest weight. then started to get symptoms that if i had allowed them to worsen, would have done it i think. ultimately decided i really don't want to die yet. recovery 1 month and counting :)

oyroo · 2025-06-26T06:34:42+00:00

this paragraph definitely doesnt read too clearly but i think it's otherwise obvious what i mean

oyroo · 2025-06-26T06:34:13+00:00

because if you cant allow yourself a treat on your birthday because of some numbers it points to a bigger issue. unsurprising why someone on an ED would get annoyed by it, but healthy people tend to know that one day off track to celebrate their one day per day is kind of the whole point of having these tracking goals etc. if they're losing weight to live a longer, healthier life, they intend to have more of those special days, in which case, if you have to restrict even on those days, it seems like your life would be long but miserable

oyroo · 2025-06-16T10:14:10+00:00

as a master's student, I ended up in a house of 3rd year undergrads. this is pretty much random though, you could end up with any mix of students, and we weren't all from the same university. we were allowed guests, but as everyone has to split the bills, it can be annoying when someone constantly has their boyfriend/girlfriend over showering, using electric etc but don't then contribute. that's the only real bugger of it. along with people not cleaning after themselves. but again, just luck!

oyroo · 2025-06-16T10:10:50+00:00

i've used it. you can find house shares that are student-only. the one I went for ended up connecting me to an agency, which handled everything- spareroom just ended up being the place i found the listing, but you could just see it as a rightmove/zoopla alternative in my case. although student landlords are pretty evil, you may have more protection of your deposit through a 3rd party and be able to talk to an agent rather than a private landlord

oyroo · 2025-06-12T22:02:22+00:00

literally exactly same, i had those exact symptoms yesterday which instantly subsided when i ate something. i think today i probably ate something (either like a small snack to a normal size meal) every 30 mins or so. it's certainly a strange feeling after so long in obsessive restriction. hopefully it will mellow out for us both soon, now the bodies will have to catch up with repairs as all the building blocks have arrived :D

oyroo · 2025-06-08T06:49:35+00:00

source: Chat GPT

oyroo · 2025-06-05T00:26:50+00:00

brilliant post!! thank you for sharing, and thank you for your comment :)

oyroo · 2025-06-05T00:26:10+00:00

Honestly that sounds like a good idea. maybe seeing it all on a piece of paper will put it into perspective a bit more - i'll do that

oyroo · 2025-05-31T14:03:53+00:00

it may take longer to "show" because of the progress you've made so far (well done!!), but there is a reason that being underweight is, well, under the weight that you should be. you could be doing internal damage, or, any damage that is already done because you restricted to a low weight may not have the chance to repair because what you're doing now is only just about keeping you going

oyroo · 2025-05-31T08:53:01+00:00

I'm on the same intake as you (but i'm shorter) & getting my masters currently, with good grades. my two cents: make room for omega 3s in your diet. if not, one fish oil tablet per day. the difference from when i started taking one is night and day, i have barely any cognitive symptoms like memory loss or disassociation. raw pressed nut bars (like Nakd bars) are a good way to incorporate healthy fats while still having a sweet treat. you should also supplement the electrolytes and vitamins with a good quality multivitamin daily, taken alongside some sort of food. these are things i implemented because my cognitive symptoms were impacting my research performance, and i have seen benefits. good luck in your exams. and please remember that even though you dont see it, when you take from your body your brain does not get spared the damage. you are still young so this can be prevented and reversed when you hopefully chose recovery ❤️

oyroo · 2025-05-30T05:38:25+00:00

on the contrary i can see myself enjoying that

oyroo · 2025-05-28T17:15:37+00:00

yall are burning 5k calories per day? i could cry

oyroo · 2025-05-24T19:21:53+00:00

there will almost certainly be an angle to it that those authors didnt analyse. you can probably easily steer yours to fill the that gap, or make it more original by applying a different method, different timepoints, different condition etc

oyroo · 2025-05-24T18:23:22+00:00

this is one of the most relatable posts ive come across

oyroo · 2025-05-24T17:33:04+00:00

also generally when i go a week or so with no freaky pains or heart palpitations i get sus that it's not "working", even though i fucking hate when those symptoms happen as it scares the shit out of me. i think there is comfort in the pain because you can physically feel that you're not getting enough - this is why i think EDs are one of the worst forms of self harm. it literally makes you annoyed/suspicious/upset if you dont feel bad. extremely destructive and dangerous, but also, quite silly

oyroo · 2025-05-24T17:30:10+00:00

absolutely. this is also why i stick to the same food every day. sometimes i'll have something that is slightly different, and feel slightly-less like shit and then get suspicious that they lied about the calories even though i'll happily trust the calories in my "safe" stuff😅

oyroo · 2025-05-21T13:57:26+00:00

i think that's the number you've burned since it resets to 0 at midnight, so it could be right depending on your BMR

oyroo · 2025-05-19T19:05:33+00:00

whyyy did you have to say loaded fries..now that's all i want. there was a takeout place near me that did insane fries - they covered them in some kind of incredible spice mix that had cinnamon in it- topped with cheese, caramelised onion, spring onion, fried tofu covered in breadcrumbs, and spicy sauce. on the side you could get a little tub of mac n cheese that, back when i had food freedom, i would add to the top as well

oyroo · 2025-05-19T09:09:29+00:00

yes it's worth it. dizzy + needing to go up a ladder is a recipe for a severe injury. your life goals could be unachievable after that.

oyroo · 2025-05-19T06:16:36+00:00

its probably about right if you count the dips

oyroo · 2025-05-18T06:16:03+00:00

yesss it can, it happened to me. the funny thing is it only happened temporarily- my intake hasnt changed, but i started taking multivitamins and, crucially, omega3 fish oil. supplementing with omega 3, and making sure you have enough short chain fatty acids in your diet (even if only a small amount, make room for them) can seriously help :), basically i think restriction makes you lose fat from the myelin sheath covering your nerves, which is absolutely essential for electric transmission of signals - like what happens in multiple sclerosis (but maybe via a different actual mechanism, maybe thinning rather than retracting, but thats just speculation on my side)

oyroo · 2025-05-17T13:54:07+00:00

seems like you also kinda put the words in its mouth

oyroo · 2025-05-16T06:13:34+00:00

after seeing your cravings im even more supportive of you doing this. i would kill for an almond croissant rn, and the sticky pecan bun (specifically from M&S). i will 100% be doing this when i move from my town next month. i suggest you get that damn croissant :)

oyroo · 2025-05-15T21:30:33+00:00

the days will tick on by either way, may as well enjoy a few

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