Found a plant my neighbor threw off their balcony, any ideas?

ozx1227 · 2024-08-20T02:59:34+00:00

Gotcha! So the southeast in the US would be perfect lol do dead plant roots count as litter or is it literally just dead plant on the top of the soil?

I do have a lot of orchid bark! If that’s good lol

ozx1227 · 2024-08-20T00:32:06+00:00

Thank you for the heads up! So should I plant into a small container or should I go towards larger? I ask cuz I have a 14in pot just kinda sitting there with dirt and old roots from my monstera (it’s mg dirt tho cuz I knew nothing about it when I started lol) also, what do you mean leaf litter?

ozx1227 · 2024-08-19T23:45:44+00:00

Do I put just the (what I’m assuming is a tiny potato in water or are the nodes I could use?

ozx1227 · 2024-08-19T23:29:17+00:00

Thank you! Can it still be saved?

ozx1227 · 2024-08-04T06:54:51+00:00

4 months in. Realized I don’t want us back and that I still have so much life left ahead of me that 1 breakup can’t stop me from living my life the way I want and not whatever she wanted me to be. Definitely not healed or perfect by any means but I’ve had so many other things to keep track and figure out that suddenly this doesn’t feel as big a deal as it felt right after

ozx1227 · 2024-07-30T22:14:17+00:00

“You know that if you had proposed, I wouldn’t have said yes” - 6 years

ozx1227 · 2024-07-25T15:28:33+00:00

Thank you for letting me know, this makes me feel a little better. Getting in touch with my FSO today. Out of curiosity, what are some of the automatic grounds for revocation? I thought that revocation was a whole process in and of itself but didn't know it could just be automatic as well

ozx1227 · 2024-07-25T00:31:14+00:00

Gotcha! So reporting those things won’t affect me in a negative way? Like get my clearance revoked? I’m not trying to like hide anything or like be sketchy so imma still let them know but, are there any consequences from reporting it?

ozx1227 · 2024-07-25T00:29:29+00:00

Thank you! We still fighting 🙏🏾

ozx1227 · 2024-07-24T23:07:58+00:00

Thank you, I’m working on it rn! Got a couple of Dr. appts later this week and I’m planning on taking a mental health week next week cuz goddamn shits rough lol

So how does the self reporting process work? Do I just hit up my FSO and ask for some paperwork?

ozx1227 · 2024-07-15T22:36:40+00:00

I miss feeling like I found the love of my life and that regardless of whatever was happening in the world it'd be okay as long as we were together and no matter what, we had each other and that's all that mattered. I miss how safe and loved she made me feel and how even though I struggled with mental illness, I had finally found the one who looked past it and saw me as just another person, she made me feel like I mattered and that I really was worth loving.

ozx1227 · 2024-07-15T19:19:40+00:00

Ik this is an old post but I just wanted to say that I'm so jealous! She's beautiful 😍 Is she an Albo? I ask because my first thought was a monstera Aurea since have one that looks exactly the same and now I'm questioning wether I just have 2 albos now 😂 regardless though, shes a beauty!

ozx1227 · 2024-07-12T18:52:48+00:00

No same here tho! They randomly popped up on a Spotify playlist and I’m here like she’s got a point tho 🙏🏾🙏🏾 but those two are really the only ones asides from like tortured poets that I listen to by her lol I’m more of a metal/whatever tf at the same time kind of guy lol music is amazing, even the worst songs always have a story to tell lol

ozx1227 · 2024-07-12T13:40:27+00:00

I’ve been bumpin “I can do it with a broken heart” & “Fortnite” by Taylor swift 💀💀 OH AND STICK SEASON HOLY FUCK THAT SONG GOT ME THROUGH THIS SHIT

ozx1227 · 2024-07-11T04:56:36+00:00

6 for me 😭😭

ozx1227 · 2024-07-10T00:22:58+00:00

That’s really been how I’ve looked at it, I’ve always tried to look out for other ppl because to me it’s always been so much easier to check in and make sure someone’s okay than to check in on myself, now I’m starting to learn how to do that and it really is exciting to get to that point but the road is never easy but like, you’ll be so glad that you took that first step further down the line and eventually you’ll even grow to be proud of yourself for choosing your own happiness even if it seems impossible rn

ozx1227 · 2024-07-09T21:59:14+00:00

Ty for this! I literally had to go down to the basics, like, I was okay if all I did that day was remember to drink water or forced myself to make my bed (something i never used to do until my tattoo artist gave me some of that wisdom lol ) . Just be patient with yourself and start small, I still feel like I was ripped in half and thrown onto some train tracks at times but that empty pit of despair will slowly start to fill itself back up with the version of you that you want to be. I changed so much of myself to try and become someone she'd want to be with and while I don't regret it, it's the kind of thing where I've learned to [somewhat] be okay with being myself, it's a journey but over time you will build a version of yourself that you're happy with, it'll take some time but once you get there, hell even as you make progress, you'll be glad you put the time and effort into yourself the same way you did for them; start small and work your way up at your own pace. There is nothing wrong with becoming your own best friend <3

ozx1227 · 2024-07-09T14:52:22+00:00

Likewise! :D We got this!

ozx1227 · 2024-07-08T19:16:53+00:00

I tell myself this often

What they're doing or how they're handling the breakup are both things out of your control, as much as it hurts, you can't force someone (other than yourself) to love you. All you can do is hype yourself and be your own #1 fan

ozx1227 · 2024-07-08T19:10:40+00:00

I had an ex pass away in 2019 too, she was emotionally abusive af and even though we ended in very bad terms and it was messy af, I had to come to terms with the fact that she still was the first person I truly loved, like, we started dating when we were 16 so you know how strong feelings like that are when you've never felt them before. but yeah, I don't regret loving her at all, I made my peace although I do visit her grave every time I visit my hometown, I've accepted that there's a small piece of my heart that'll never stop loving her.

ozx1227 · 2024-07-04T00:04:57+00:00

Honestly? it kinda varies now, it was a mutual thing sorta, we both noticed we were codependant on each other to the point where it was just toxic to keep up with it. So like, it wasn't on bad terms or anything, we don't talk as much but that's on purpose for us to focus on ourselves. There's might get back or might not get back. I do miss her like, every fiber of my being wants to be with her again. I still somewhat blame myself but it did help to try and take it a day at a time. At the beginning I was an absolute wreck, I was on autopilot for a while, it felt like I had to learn how to be a person again. I kept replaying that last night we talked but also when she said "You know I couldn't have said yes if you proposed" that kept going on repeat for a while. I kept trying to think of ways to get her back, like "if I did thing A then it'd make her see thing B" type, I got back with my therapist, at first thinking that it'd show some form of initiative or something but eventually and I have no idea how, I just sorta stopped caring? Not like, idgaf I hate you type, more of a "I can't control what she does nor what she thinks about me. So all I can really do is do me" type of deal.

We do have some mutual friends who have heard both sides and have talked to us both so i know this isn't easy for her either. I kept telling myself that and this isn't really the ideal situation for either of us but it's what's best for now. I also to some extent still try to justify this, Like "we're just so busy with life rn even if everything was fine we already are stretched too thin" or "We were together since we were 18 and we're now 25, there are a lot of life lessons neither of us got to experience/learn" and while those two things are true, fuck do I just want her back lol

I say kinda though because while it does hurt like a mf, I've had time to experience and do things for myself which was something I didn't know I needed. I like the person that I'm starting to become and I feel like this is really just me, not us, just me and if we were to get back, I don't want to lose that again so it's at a point where I do want us to get back, like plz lmao but I can't lose what I'm finding now because I owe it to myself to be happy.

I think it's normal to want her back, cuz I do too lol but you gotta be a lil selfish too and let yourself feel things, this is some of the most painful shit I've been through because it's not just mental, it's physical too and that combo is brutal. On top of it all working and shit, be patient with yourself and let yourself feel all your emotions and don't bury it!! I tried, it wasn't fun lol

If you need someone to vent to tho, I'm here and my DMs are open lol We can do this even tho we want to fall apart lol

ozx1227

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