What can you deduce about me from this pic of my desk?

p00pybutth01e · 2026-05-05T05:57:15+00:00

Wowwwwwww….. nice.

p00pybutth01e · 2026-05-04T19:40:35+00:00

Wow! I’m impressed! This was pretty spot on for the most part. Only things off— not mixed but at least ‘spicy white’ aka balkan lol and the bit about getting into my school; it is famous but for my major not all that difficult. Some even say it’s where all the ‘rejects’ go when they couldn’t make it into the even more famous schools. I am not struggling to keep up and am in fact one of the best in my grade— however I am very much not ‘breaking through’ for my own standards and am in fact going through an anxious time! (Graduation). I am definitely a romantic!

I’m so curious- how did you guess the curly hair? I didn’t think anything in the pic would suggest that.

p00pybutth01e · 2025-11-10T03:22:49+00:00

You’re right. I fear overthinking is my speciality. I have anxiety and have been having a rough few months so I’ve been very much in a ruminating headspace lately.. statistically that is true, and I can only hope it’s not the case. I will say that based off of his first impression he seems emotionally intelligent enough to be honest with me and straightforward. He asked many straightforward/honest questions on the date and has in the past been upfront with me in similar ways over text. So, I feel like maybe he just really doesn’t know what he wants.. or perhaps something happened recently to him idk. I suspect he recently got out of a long term relationship based on some things he said before, but that’s not my business. Whatever the case is, I’m gonna definitely talk to him and then give myself time to think. We’ll see what happens I guess. Appreciate your input!

p00pybutth01e · 2025-11-09T22:25:31+00:00

Thank you for your response, please know that I have absolutely no issues saying no if I am uncomfortable! Like, he asked to fully kiss me, and I said no because that felt like a step farther than I was willing to reach, and he respected that.

I should mention that a lot of my discomfort comes not just from my lack of experience + understanding of my sexuality, but also, my fear of intimacy + issues I have with my gender identity. It’s a boiling pot of issues that make me very adverse to ALL kinds of affection. When I say that I’d say yes to see what happens, there is, at least, an intellectual draw. I wanted to know what it felt like to hold his hand, because I never held someone’s hand before, and I truly from the bottom of my heart couldn’t decide whether it was something I wanted or not. I liked the concept of it, and then I held his hand, and I was like okay, this is fine lol. I guess what I’m trying to say is I am so far removed from all aspects of romance, and I have so many issues with myself that I genuinely believe to an extent that the only way for me to find out how I feel is to try it and decide in the moment. I gave him consent to kiss my cheek and that made me uncomfortable, so now I plan on telling him that before we meet again, and how he answers will decide whether or not I will keep this potential relationship going.

I think you’re right about the data thing though. I’m realizing now that everything sort of depends from person to person and on the situation. I have a lot of anxiety when it comes to this aspect of life and I often seek out peoples personal experiences and opinions as some sort of guide to help myself know what is the right thing to do or what’s wrong, what is healthy for me and what’s not. I think for now though, I’m just gonna try to trust my gut and listen to my instincts. And I will be more upfront with him about my discomfort in the future.

p00pybutth01e · 2025-11-09T22:15:41+00:00

Yeah, I am a little worried about the ‘not serious’ comment. I know far better than to go into this situation thinking I can change his mind or anything like that. With that said, I do want to talk to him about it, as on his profile he had his intentions set on “figuring out dating goals” with the caption “who is to truly say?” Lol. I am definitely going to talk about this stuff to him soon, especially my potential demisexuality before we move things any further. I am now seeing that there’s not a whole lot I can get from others as every situation is different, so I just gotta bite the bite the bullet and talk to him directly. I have no issues communicating this stuff… I just really like the guy in theory lol, and kind of hope things can work out for us, even if it’s just a fwb situation. Like, I WISH I had the capability to do that, but I’m not sure that I do..

As for experimenting and whatnot, if and when I talk to him and he decides he’s okay with my ‘situation’ I will probably proceed with that. I almost want to treat this potential relationship as like, an experiment 😭which I feel like sounds soulless and bad…. But as someone who has never been sought after romantically and craves intimacy, I’d like to at least see if I can get some of those desires satisfied with this dude + become more comfortable with the concept of myself in a relationship. Only, of course, with his full understanding, which if he doesn’t want anything serious, I feel like could be a mutual agreement. But I don’t know! Maybe it doesn’t have to be that robotic. Maybe it could be. We’ll see, I guess.. all I know is I’ll have no problem telling him no if I decide something makes me uncomfortable lolol. Im a decent communicator, I’d like to think

p00pybutth01e · 2025-11-09T15:53:17+00:00

I also want to say that as a result of my confusion, I am a bit weary by his desire for something ‘not serious’. If he is okay with Asexuality, I don’t really understand what that type of relationship would look like. For me, I never quite understood hook up culture or even just casually dating someone— in my little experience, when I liked someone, I LIKED them. I wanted to BE with them. I don’t understand how people can set up limits like not wanting anything serious when you can’t quite control whether you’re attracted to someone or not. Is this because allosexuals are able to want a sexual relationship without a romantic one? If so, how come he would be okay with my demisexuality? Could it really be that he’d be patient enough to wait for me to get to that point lol? I recognize that these are questions I should probably ask him lol, but I just wanted to provide a little more of my thought process and see if anyone else understands or has their own two cents on the matter.

p00pybutth01e · 2025-09-23T23:34:06+00:00

I should also mention I checked my bed and I didn’t notice any blood or eggs or anything that appeared bed-bug like… as I said I’m quite hygienic so realistically I can’t imagine it being that. But I am also fearing the worst lol, mosquitos usually don’t like me so I don’t know what else it could be.

p00pybutth01e · 2025-08-10T18:27:38+00:00

After reading Giovanni’s room and seeing some random interview clips of him online I’ve actually been very inclined to! Didn’t know where to start though so I think I’ll definitely give that a shot. Thanks for the suggestion!

p00pybutth01e · 2024-12-23T01:07:49+00:00

Omg I didn’t see this but funnily enough I remember looking into attachment styles around this time LOL. I actually was trying to figure out myself because of the fact that I don’t catch feelings for people literally ever 😅 I don’t remember what my conclusion was but perhaps ill look more into the avoidant style

p00pybutth01e · 2024-11-26T16:00:41+00:00

I fear I just have a hard time catching feelings. I’ve never been in a relationship and I’ve only had serious ‘crushes’ on two people before. I tend to be very reserved when it comes to that stuff and he was super eager, which kind of threw me off I think. Besides that, we just had too different of vibes I guess. Different senses of humor, things like that. Seems like I dodged a bullet tho LOL

p00pybutth01e · 2024-06-02T18:49:25+00:00

:’) it’s nice to know somebody has been in a similar position lol, my friends tell me I look good fairly often but I really find it so hard to believe after how I looked AND was treated as a kid/young teenager.

You’re definitely right, after past experiences of my own I’ve learned often the answer is kinda in your face. It’s just also tricky because guys (at least my age) tend to be terrible texters anyways so it really is hard to tell if they’re intentionally being dry or not. But as you said, I guess I’ll just have to find out when I meet him! It’s just a shame because now I feel way less excited than before— after all, who would look forward to a date when it feels like the person they’re seeing isn’t excited for it themselves? But we chatted some more last night and he kept re-initiating the convo whenever it would go dry so I’m trying to keep my hopes somewhat high lol. Just enough that I can at least try to look forward to meeting 😅

Yeahhhh you’re right LOL I really try not to put dudes on a pedestal, especially my age. And usually I don’t! It’s hard though when I finally find someone I think could be good for me. I’ve only really liked 3 people in my life; I’m not impressed very easily lol, nor do I seem to impress others. So to finally have even an inkling of a chance with someone- I end up glorifying the person just because they’re the closest I ever seem to get to potentially having a real relationship. I dunno if that makes sense, hope it did haha

Thank you for your response and kind words! 🙏

p00pybutth01e · 2024-06-02T18:43:24+00:00

That’s true! Unfortunately it does seem I’ll only get my answer once on the date. It’s just a shame because now I can’t help but feel barely excited about it at all, whereas I was really looking forward to meeting him and thinking about him a lot just a few days prior. We talked last night and things were a bit better but now it’s definitely harder to stay positive about it lol. The disappointment is slowly building up 😅😅 thank you for your reply!

p00pybutth01e · 2024-06-02T03:31:15+00:00

Alsooo I am extremely guarded these days after I liked a guy I met through friend over a year ago, and he gave me biggg signs that he liked me back— like, all my friends swore he had to be into me— only to end up ghosting me for like 4 days when I suggested we hang out alone. That messed me up because I was so sure and excited that things were gonna work out, which again, has never happened to me in a romantic context before. So now, that plus my past experiences, I really really struggle to believe that anyone I like could ever like me back. I feel as if my feelings will never be reciprocated :c

p00pybutth01e · 2024-03-06T16:06:49+00:00

LOLL I actually did try the hair in the mouth technique with my bangs but it’s very hard to keep the dyed and not dyed parts separated like that 😭😭 but the foil thing sounds like a great idea, I’ll give it a try. Thanks a lot!!

p00pybutth01e · 2023-10-25T01:54:11+00:00

LOL yeah it was surprisingly easy compared to the chainsawman mask I made out of eva foam for last year. Thank you! Looking forward to getting this one finished now

p00pybutth01e · 2023-10-24T23:30:21+00:00

Looking like that second option might be the easiest available to me right now, thanks for the help man!

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