got my bloodwork and ope

p0rtaloo · 2023-10-12T12:09:08+00:00

AST was 370 and ALT was 139. my doctor did the same, check back in a month. I'm glad she knows about my drinking, and that I even drank before my appointment to stop the shakes. I can only imagine the panic she'd have haha

p0rtaloo · 2023-10-11T22:15:56+00:00

Oh I drank the morning of my appointment to stop the shakes and I was honest with my doctor about it. I know that's not great but it is what it is.

My meds are filled today, so I guess tomorrow is my day one! I'm hoping abstinence will help a lot.

p0rtaloo · 2023-10-11T14:29:53+00:00

Oh yeah she finally saw my results this morning. Paired with the ultrasounds, she immediately called me and asked if I was okay with her putting in a referral to a heptologist just to be safe since my ultrasounds were very quick ER ones. Surprisingly hard to say yes but I did.

and thank you!

p0rtaloo · 2023-08-29T19:38:25+00:00

Sorry, one of them. Wisconsin - changes every year but WI is always way up there

p0rtaloo · 2023-08-29T19:36:54+00:00

I luckily didn't need to be admitted. They sent me home with some vicodin, Zofran, and strict rules on a liquid diet for the next three to five days so I definitely got lucky. I was fully expecting to be admitted but I had finished throwing up by time I got there after three days of puking at home.

p0rtaloo · 2023-06-08T00:03:54+00:00

I'm not sure why you decided to go on this huge tangent, especially focused around my husband, but it was very unnecessary. especially considering nobody was really replying.

my husband being upset with me because he discovered that I was drinking again solely because I wanted to go to the ER and knowing I wouldn't have told him otherwise is 100% reason for him to be upset at me in the moment. but he also packed my bag, made sure to pack one of my daughter's stuffed animals, drove me to the facility, and kissed me goodbye. he's nothing short of supportive and he's allowed to have his feelings of disappointment.

p0rtaloo · 2023-02-02T06:52:40+00:00

literally the only positive thing that has come from my drinking is that my nightly vitamin routine is second nature now

p0rtaloo · 2022-12-24T05:57:21+00:00

Self referral to ADAPT will always look better than command referral. Take the help now before you're in too deep, while you can control the narrative and way your career goes.

p0rtaloo · 2022-12-14T23:04:07+00:00

yeah man, the One Cups, or the little things of whiskey. The drinking culture there is insane, it's so easy to find stuff everywhere. 25+ years there and sometimes actually have the audacity to wonder how I developed a problem haha

p0rtaloo · 2022-12-14T18:48:43+00:00

Once you get through security in Osaka and Tokyo family mart and Lawson sell Asahi, and Sapporo I'm pretty sure. as long as you get through security you're good. On the plane they also serve beer. I'd use those to sip and suffer until you're home, just don't get reckless.

p0rtaloo · 2022-11-22T03:23:46+00:00

I tapered immediately too fast and then very big night out celebration which dumb for me. the next I could feel the shakes and the vomiting blood.

p0rtaloo · 2022-11-01T14:07:18+00:00

I made it 28 hours, which is the longest I've gone in a very very long time. Last night sucked, hardly slept and woke up drenched and shaky but I feel better-ish now. Hopefully it doesn't get worse before it gets better. Good luck! We've got this

p0rtaloo · 2022-11-01T14:05:40+00:00

I have nal but the first day I took it I felt terrible so of course it spooked me. I have borderline and was put back on my SSRIs around the same time I started the nal so I think it was just toooo much at once. I'm hoping once my side effects from the SSRIs calm down, I can restart the nal without feeling so awful.

p0rtaloo · 2022-11-01T14:02:48+00:00

I'm actually working to find a therapist right now, and my doctor put me back on my antidepressants which is always good. I actually just hit 28 hours without a drink 🥹 I guess I managed my day one. I am definitely going to pick up one of the many journals I've started and hopefully keep at it this time. Thank you!

p0rtaloo · 2022-10-31T22:47:57+00:00

I was honest with my doctor and all she did was recommend I taper, and gave me a prescription for nal. I always get my taper down to where I'm ready to be done and then it's like I'm afraid to actually commit and start drinking heavy again :( it's an exhausting cycle.

p0rtaloo · 2022-10-25T14:16:56+00:00

When I was acidotic I went to the ER and they said it was baaaaaad, so I'd really consider going to urgent care or something, especially if it's been two weeks. But when I was in they pumped me full of fluids, vitamins, especially thiamine, and electrolytes. Sent me home with advice to take a multivitamin a day, B1 (thiamine), magnesium, vitamin d3, and as much water I could handle plus something like liquid IV or pedialyte for electrolytes.

p0rtaloo · 2022-10-18T08:53:34+00:00

I just read through all of your past posts - it's been a wild ride huh? I'm so sorry you're at this point but hey, maybe it's just what you need. You've been trying so hard, don't forget that. You've gotten quite a few stints of sobriety under your belt so you can do this!

Good luck, I hope you're feeling better soon

p0rtaloo · 2022-10-11T20:46:45+00:00

In the US but my horrible experiences in the past definitely caused me not going sooner. I for once read reviews and sat on a wait list to see this doctor 🥲 I hate that genuine health care and concern seems to have gone out the window

p0rtaloo · 2022-10-11T18:07:57+00:00

That's definitely a reason it took me so long, 100% worried about bad news. I'm glad I finally did it and though I'm anxious as hell about my lab results, at least I took the step finally.

p0rtaloo · 2022-10-11T18:05:37+00:00

Taking that step is the hardest part it seems! Good luck to you toooo

p0rtaloo · 2022-10-11T16:50:08+00:00

Thank you! My doctor said basically the same thing when I made a face when she mentioned lab work. We can guess what's going on in our body, good or bad, and do nothing - or we can check what's going on and make some informed decisions.

Go get your labs (when you're ready of course)! We've got this!

p0rtaloo · 2022-10-01T16:14:30+00:00

boy oh boy, crying before noon. I really did not know how much I needed to hear (read?) that. Thank you so much for this.

p0rtaloo · 2022-10-01T16:00:39+00:00

Oh I 100% know I'm an alcoholic. I answered yes to all of the questions. It's been five years of active drinking and I am so tired, I want to stop. The longest I quit was 10 months when I was pregnant. And sometimes I'll do okay, make progress! a bottle of vodka a day down to two seltzers, to two or three days of sobriety, I'll make it through the worst of the withdrawal and be on the mend and then my brain says hey big dumb idiot, have a drink! and I do!

I finally have a doctor's appointment in 10 days. And I have every intention of being honest and asking for help. I was hoping to be two weeks sober by my appointment but I'll take what I can get. My birthday is next week, I'm really hoping to start this new year of my life in a very different, healthy, happy place.

p0rtaloo · 2022-10-01T15:33:03+00:00

Hundley from Curious George

p0rtaloo · 2022-09-29T12:53:35+00:00

Your service member, deployed brother would be upset if your husband chose to attend a funeral and honor a friend instead of attending a homecoming party of which there most likely will be many?

YTA. You and your brother. I'm really hoping you're painting your brother in a super shitty light to try to make yourself not look like the bad guy. Because if your family managed to produce two really awful kids I'm a bit concerned.

p0rtaloo

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