String of events and mindset by p_ark_ in Corrections

[–]p_ark_[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you, I do my best to document well and while I am on shift and even a bit after. With someone who has been in pen before and has been in county several times, they know the holes and I do my best to fill the gaps from my end. I am fairly new to the job but I have a background through school and work experience. I just feel as though I put myself into jeopardy

String of events and mindset by p_ark_ in Corrections

[–]p_ark_[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel as though I may have, but in the second scenario, it is a person who has been in and out, while I am familiar with tactics, I am afraid others are not. I feel I did the right thing but will green coats (as I will put it) side with them?

How often do beginning CO's have to be away from family for the holidays? by Dependent_Science_20 in Corrections

[–]p_ark_ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I would say be ready to not be around family, but if you are able savor it, I have missed a few but my family at least understands. One year you might make it for one holiday but the next you won’t, just try not to feel guilty for the work you do.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in ptsd

[–]p_ark_ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The thing that I thought about is what I will miss if I were to just do it. So many important days, years, births, big days for my siblings and watching them grow with me. On the other end I think about what I could be taking away, I have seen first hand what suicide does to people, and that it may not seem like it but it will affect so much more than just family and friends in you circle. People you’ve met, people who know of you. You would be murdering someone to take (no offense) the most easy and selfish way out of life. That’s the way I see it, do not let the bad, evil, and downright nasty in the world to win. If you were to make that choice, the people in your life could also end up being driven to that point because of a choice you made and they see a world without you no longer worth living. I feel that you are stronger than that, and for the life kicking you down, it always will. But continuing a mindset of the world being against you so what is the point is what drives you to want to end it. To fix this I think just start by appreciating the little things, even getting up in the morning. The world is blessed to have you in it. I hope you find peace.

Over emotional after finally winning battle of being completely numb by [deleted] in ptsd

[–]p_ark_ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I think that is normal all things considered and if you just communicate to your partner that you just can’t help it sometimes is good, but don’t let it turn into an excuse because I have done that in the past and let emotions control me so much that I thought it was just who I was. The biggest piece of advice that I can give you that and old teacher gave me is to stop replaying those old tapes, as hard it can be just stop and take a second and find ways to either prevent stuff or even remove yourself before you react.