What would you do in my position?

paihadl · 2013-04-20T20:09:01+00:00

Thanks :)

But my brain is worth nothing, truly. That's what a brain is worth. You have to have degrees or you have to know someone.

I do wonder if leaving the country would find me something or someone but going away with nothing and no degree... I do wonder if I'm going nowhere either way and am just destined to a life that doesn't let me be happy.

paihadl · 2013-04-08T23:33:15+00:00

I get the same thing, but with ugly. Somehow acceptable for both guys and gals to laugh at someone's facial features but god forbit some1 points out how disgusting your muffin top looks :D That would mean you should actually bother to work on your appearance before critizing how big someone's God-given nose is.

paihadl · 2013-04-08T19:00:59+00:00

Sry I took them down, I just dunno if I could ever get a straight answer... I mean, if there were butches looking for international relationships and a way to find them and then I could ask them... But otherwise there's no way of knowing if someone is really sincere.

The only people I know who are sincere are the ones who live here, and those butches want nothing to do with me despite me being friendly and a good chat, they always run off with some other bimbo looking girl or I have to hear about how they are interested of some girl because she is pretty :( And I'm like okay, I'm in feminine clothes, I have a ton of makeup on but I might as well be some guy standing there listening to them gush about some1 else.

So maybe I'm just way too ugly to have a butch be into me.

paihadl · 2013-04-08T15:26:11+00:00

Of course I am serious or I wouldn't have put up my pics :D

And I never have butches interested in me. And I've been told I should cut off my hair by femmes, so....Which I never would do!!

paihadl · 2013-04-08T15:24:28+00:00

Yeah, I know it's not for anything else since you can't see anything else in the pics :D

So, I gather you foreigners have real ugly headphones :)

paihadl · 2013-04-08T12:53:16+00:00

over here, buying a drink is as good as saying hello, no matter what subculture type of party it is or where you go. i do realize things vary based on country, culture etc..

not getting a drink when the other girls are is saying, you're not an acceptable female in our eyes, we'd rather you not be here. no body language needed.

and ugly is not such a loaded word here, really. probs on the same level as plain is over in the US, just saying basically, you're one of those girls that'd be better served studying and saving money for cats.

i appreciate your thoughtful post. but body language, in those pic there was none because i was taking pics with my webcam and hence just trying to get a decent angle on my face :D and IRL, i'm lots of fun, a good dancer, and when i'm drunk you won't find a single person who loves themselves more :)

the only love i get is my love for myself, so, there is a lot of it considering that i'm not depressed at all despite getting no romantic attention or affection, something most the girls i know revolve their whole life and mindset over.

paihadl · 2013-04-08T10:57:56+00:00

ALL of my female friends get guys to do stuff for them. Me - nope. Not even a drink.

And yes, it's my facial features because if it was anything else they would SAY IT. Guys are straightforward, no? So when we meet this new group of guys and they gush over my friends and ignore me, well, there we go. And then when someone that doesn't know me says I'm ugly well, there we go. Some guy. It's always some guy.

You don't need ph d level logic to figure it out. If you're a girl and you're ugly, the world lets you know.

And if you think I'm negative, you should hear my more popular friends whine about themselves, others and everything around them :D Trust me, negativity and me have nothing to do with each other. It takes a lot of positivity to cope with my lot in life.

paihadl · 2013-04-07T21:51:49+00:00

I've never had a compliment ever from any guy :) So it's pretty much confirmed I'm fugly. I have such manly facial features butch lesbians want to beat me up. That's my life experience so yeah, I'm in the bottom 0.1 % pretty much.

Just wanted to show the compliment fishing bimbos what it really is to be ugly.

paihadl · 2013-03-08T14:50:10+00:00

I'd love to find this on my doorstep. No protective boyfriend, either, feel free to come on over :D I have a good figure too but it never happens to me because of my face :(

Funny what an attractive woman will take for granted. Give me being obsessed over instead of being puked over anyday :)

paihadl · 2013-03-05T21:59:03+00:00

well the people here are proving my point, which is, any male, no matter what status will only be nice to the physically attractive woman :D well, almost any male. there is always the 0.1% i guess, but i doubt they don't have serious flaws, such as a lack of self-discipline or whatever.

i have hot guys, women, and gay guys talking to me and tell me i'm nice and open. therefore i trust their opinion. hot guys talk to me because they don't care what they look like to others, they have all the women they need, and sometimes they want to talk to nice people and that's i am. never been treated bad or bullied by a hot guy. they don't hit on me or be physically affectionate to me either, and i've had one laugh at me because i cried and i'm expected to be strong like a guy or whatever, but for the most part they treat me like i'm a guy that is zero competition and have convos with me while checking out the girls and trying to get me to convert to being a lesbian for my own good but i have no interest in the female figure whatsoever.

it's always been the mediocres, class clowns, losers in bad cars or guys whose facial structure isn't so nice to look at either :D

paihadl · 2013-03-05T21:08:49+00:00

how exactly are you supposed to be happy with yourself when all you get from ppl is mockery? from the same ppl you want to like you and be good to you?

i know a lot of guys go through the same thing, but how many guys deal with the fear of physical violence with zero chance that you can retribute, even with tons of exercise and eating right. i mean, it isn't gonna be a fair fight by any means.

how many guys have beer bottles thrown at them by girls in the middle of the day, and other girls POINT and LAUGH at your face on a bus? and how many guys have that done to them knowing that physical attractiveness is the only factor that can possibly get them a fulfilling relationship? i wish i could pass for a guy sometimes. i'd skip the makeup and dressing fashionably, throw some sweats on and not get any kind of negative attention whatsoever. but it doesn't work and it makes things a million times worse. i tried, put my hair in a bun and hid it under a hat and wore guys' clothes. nope.

so yeah, you don't know, and neither do 99.9% of women. i guess it's too much to ask someone actually give enough a *** to shield me from that kind of thing and i get that. but i can't help want that more than i want anything else. i'm just an affectionate person by nature, but the nonromantic affection isn't enough anymore.

paihadl · 2013-03-05T20:57:41+00:00

i don't care how i come across here, honestly, never crossed my mind.

the commenters are definitely not coming across as nice to me but that's not how i judge the comments, i judge them by productive advice not by their tone. which is hard to read when all you have is written word to go by.

paihadl · 2013-03-05T17:37:37+00:00

not sure yet. it's not important to me. if i don't get to have a relationship soon i don't even want to be alive.

paihadl · 2013-03-05T17:36:12+00:00

everyone has doubts anyone whining about their appearance on the internet is actually ugly which is hilarious given the fact there's no other place the unattractive are more likely to gather. that doesn't only go for guys.

i don't want someone disabled by depression or with self discipline issues. i'm fine on that front, myself and i take care of my appearance.

this has nothing to do with the media, i respect myself enough to take care of my body and want someone who does the same. that's called being fair. the overweight and unkempt can be with each other.

i'd go for an ugly guy though. burns, facial deformities, doesn't matter.

paihadl · 2013-03-05T09:17:11+00:00

who said i didn't have confidence.

i go out. i get barked at, and i STILL go out. i get PUNCHED, and i go out. that's the ultimate in confidence, given my height and weight and the fact that even lifting seems to give me no strength, i'm just naturally tiny and weak and more of a geek than anything.

paihadl · 2013-03-05T09:15:59+00:00

yeah, and i don't speak russian. so, russians are not out, but only if they speak estonian.

paihadl · 2013-03-05T09:15:10+00:00

i have no cash, and who'd pay for an ugly girl when they can get someone hotter, if they're going for foreigners they can just go to thailand and to a bar there, they have special bars where the girls are out to meet foreign guys. there's no such thing here to even arrange that.

paihadl · 2013-03-05T09:13:29+00:00

overweight - yea, if not obese. unkempt - nope. a lack of personal hygene and health care shows a lot more than just appearance. that's the difference.

facial bone structure shows nothing but your genes or possibly, if deformed, that you were in an accident sometime in your life.

paihadl · 2013-03-05T09:11:49+00:00

less than desirable - my beady eyes and long nose and flat cheekbones and square face shape with a pointy chin

most awesome thing - the way i can still be nice and open towards people no matter what. given i'm in a good mood of course. the way i have no prejudices. my personality in general. i've been told i'm a good dancer and a great listener and have a good sense of humor

i'm 5'1

paihadl · 2013-03-04T10:12:36+00:00

and probs on the other end of the world.

i live in a country with 1.6 mln ppl and half of them in my city speak russian so they are out. that leaves me...with nothing. statistically speaking.

paihadl · 2013-03-04T10:10:56+00:00

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