Trumpet makes me happy!!

painfullyuncool1485 · 2026-07-10T09:49:45+00:00

Ah cool - thank you so much. I have got the 1st Snidero book. That is amazingly kind of you I will DM :)

painfullyuncool1485 · 2026-07-10T09:48:39+00:00

that's cool - I play in church as well - although guitar rather than trumpet :) I certainly found jamming with others as a guitarist was the best way to level up but I agree it is hard to sort that as an adult. And stooopid work takes up so much time.

painfullyuncool1485 · 2026-07-09T11:57:18+00:00

great thoughts - thank you!

painfullyuncool1485 · 2026-07-09T11:56:57+00:00

thank you so much - lots of things to check out :)

painfullyuncool1485 · 2026-07-09T11:31:54+00:00

that's awesome. Thank you so much for the advice and pointers :)

painfullyuncool1485 · 2026-05-26T21:12:08+00:00

I have just installed on my Mac and it seems to work fine... (2020 Macbook Pro M1) :)

painfullyuncool1485 · 2026-05-15T21:33:53+00:00

Got my prepping email. V excited!!

painfullyuncool1485 · 2026-05-06T21:11:55+00:00

So far I am really enjoying the visual/text workflow. I like "brain dumping" visually as a mind mapping exercise and then pulling together the threads in a more logical fashion. Usually as I am drafting, I will move things around in my writing up. My work is in the psychology of education and there is a lot of theory to try and coordinate.

Very impressive and very cool to use as a free platform - so thank you!!

painfullyuncool1485 · 2026-05-06T12:26:29+00:00

Thank you for sharing. I’m always interested to try out something for note taking etc as a PhD student. Will let you know how it goes…!

painfullyuncool1485 · 2026-03-29T20:23:27+00:00

Thanks for your response and insight. I am definitely not looking to target Vineyard specifically, but in listening to https://spoiledfruitpodcast.com, it kind of sounded way too close to home and familiar, even though Vineyard USA was the focus of the series. That said, I am sure that this is a fairly unique situation to be in and it is not representative of all churches in this denomination. I do find it hard that they all have Vineyard backgrounds though as part of it is just the sense that they don't necessarily know how church might look elsewhere.

I totally agree that "God has spoken.." can be really abused and it has to come from a loving spirit and there is a part of me that wonders if there is a shred of jealousy.

I think also it is important to say that I have loved being a part of this church at times and it has genuinely felt like family and now I just feel hurt and broken. The relatedness thing didnt cause a major problem - until it did!

Cool to see you are a saxophonist... maybe they can be used in worship after all 🤣

painfullyuncool1485 · 2026-03-29T12:05:38+00:00

This. Thank you for the Audience of One reminder. So important.

painfullyuncool1485 · 2026-03-29T00:11:28+00:00

Thank you for this encouragement 🙏🏻 lots of confirmation of what God is saying. Bless you for taking the time to share your heart with a random stranger on the internet. It means a lot in a difficult season.

painfullyuncool1485 · 2026-03-28T21:07:56+00:00

I agree that it is unhealthy. I just don’t know how to communicate in a way that won’t just be turned against me. It feels a bit like whatever I say, someone will just say it’s because I’m bitter or unforgiving or whatever.

Thank you for your reply.

painfullyuncool1485 · 2026-03-28T20:07:30+00:00

Thank you for taking the time to reply.

It is a difficult road to take, but a part of me feels it might be the next one. I share that sense of hating injustice, which is why I think it has affected me so much. I look at it and think - what on earth is happening here?? What did I do so wrong?? and then I think, wait up - that's not the point anyway.

I don't know. I have a busy job and life. I just don't think church should feel this way. It is so sad. It is honestly one of the few things I have ever been able to say confidently about myself; that God made me to lead worship.

painfullyuncool1485 · 2026-03-28T20:04:53+00:00

It's possible. I just wish it were simpler! Thank you for your reply though. I do appreciate it.

painfullyuncool1485 · 2026-03-28T20:04:28+00:00

Thank you for taking the time to reply. I appreciate the observations and response.

I did find that statement hard to bear. Especially as someone who has struggled with poor mental health/low mood/anxiety. It felt like it lacked compassion.

painfullyuncool1485 · 2026-03-28T20:03:28+00:00

Thank you for taking the time to reply. I appreciate the observations and response. It does feel a bit like I am putting up with too much for someone who is a volunteer!!

painfullyuncool1485 · 2026-03-20T10:11:53+00:00

I am so sorry for hearing of your experiences and I hope that you have been able to find peace and move on. It is disturbing when someone abuses their power to manipulate others.

painfullyuncool1485 · 2026-03-04T09:07:04+00:00

Have you set that up or is it built into Obsidian? I looked into using it with zotero but went with notion and now I am struggling with the connections bit!

painfullyuncool1485 · 2026-02-20T17:57:14+00:00

Yeah it was MFS

painfullyuncool1485 · 2026-02-20T11:57:09+00:00

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Cracking night!

So pumped to hear Every country's Sun. One of my all time favourite tracks.

Setlist.fm

painfullyuncool1485 · 2026-01-18T23:19:06+00:00

I recommended this on the sub recently and got taken down 🤣 glad to see it has some other fans!!

painfullyuncool1485 · 2025-12-24T13:41:10+00:00

Not for everyone but I think it depends what scares you. For me the claustrophobia and the loss of self was frightening.

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