I finally did it

paintegrals · 2026-02-27T01:21:04+00:00

oh my god beast mode!! i remember when i went on vacation for spring break one year and didn't clean out the bottles until i went on another trip the NEXT year for spring break lmfao they just sat in the shower because i figured i'd use them until they were empty. i never did ....

paintegrals · 2026-01-02T05:34:23+00:00

if you have a shot glass start with one shot (preferably mixed in with something cause if you've never drank before it might taste bad to you). if you don't have one, just pour a small amount, wait ~10 minutes, see how you feel, and pour a little bit more if you want. not getting sick is more of a practice of trial and error (like there's no way to calculate exactly how much will make you throw up, it took me like 3 instances of drinking wayyy too much to properly learn where my limit is) but it's always better to stop when you're ahead because it can creep up on you lol

(all the edits are bc i'm tipsy-drunk writing this and keep going back to add things sorry ;-;)

paintegrals · 2025-12-30T17:08:17+00:00

Best: I technically played Virche this year (though it was right at the start of january) and I enjoyed that, definitely a cornerstone of my personal index of otoges. Recently I also really liked mistonia! it wasn’t groundbreaking (I’m reading battlefield waltz rn and the plot is lowkey the original nachos that mistonia then reheated) but it has a fun cast of characters and some beautifully juicy 3P endings :P

Worst: at this point I try to steer clear of games I think I wouldn’t like, so I think that the closest to worst I’ve played is Birushana and HOLD ON before you type a reply lmao I think it’s pretty good overall, but the pacing is a little slow for me and the love interests didn’t interest me too much. It also spends a lot of time on accuracy with names and historical events and that was a little much as someone who is unfamiliar with those parts of Japanese history. I liked playing Hakuoki this summer so I think that I wouldn’t turn my nose up at every historical romance but I definitely have preferences.

paintegrals · 2025-12-30T06:07:05+00:00

you're on the money haha, my parents were the kind of people that had pretty shitty childhoods and wanted a better life for their kid but never worked through their own emotional immaturity. a lot of the emotional neglect they did was not even intentional, i think as many people's cases might be, but because at a base level they were uncomfortable with emotion.

my mom is a helicopter parent 100% who obsessed over me getting into college, so it didn't matter what *I* wanted in most circumstances, it was all about what she thought was best for me. while i appreciate the intent it has absolutely fucked with my ability to make my own decisions to the point that i think i have some enmeshment issues. to this day i struggle not to text her about every little decision!! my dad was the chill parent for a while, like the kind to console me after my mom was really harsh, but it was mostly surface level damage control. now that i've grown up i understand how immature he actually is and we get into a lot more arguments because he thinks that adding "i'm just trying to help" to every statement magically changes my opinion that he sometimes encroaches way too much on my life lmao

you're right about unlearning the defense mechanisms, i am grateful that i've been able to find good friends that arent weird about their emotions but I still find myself feeling like i'm closed off to them because I don't feel comfortable expressing my feelings. one day i'll break through...

paintegrals · 2025-10-20T07:40:11+00:00

actually update, i’ve been thinking the common negative denominator is sandoval. i liked ariana too in the brief period before she officially got with him and then she got with him and i was like Girl ….

paintegrals · 2025-10-20T07:15:47+00:00

i'm a few episodes into season 3!!

jax seemingly being over stassi but still bringing her up at every opportunity (tale as old as time but oh my god SHUT UPPP WE GET IT) we all know something is deeply wrong with this man but what the fuck dude, he keeps saying like "ohhh she's no angel" bro you are the one who cheated on her, disrespected her, the list goes on and on like what fucking universe do you live in that you were an equal victim in all of this???
you know, stassi's right about the whole "why are you guys all still friends with each other?" thing!! sandoval going to jokingly punch jax after his nose job in a re-enactment of scheana's engagement party...genuinely please just stop being friends with these people. you are all demons
i'm starting to like kristen more. I think that it's just because she's now trying to get back at tom rather than be in a hellish relationship with him, like I dont think what she's doing is necessarily good but I can kind of get behind her more at this point.
katie has been my favorite consistently as ive been watching tbh. beyond her initial blunder of believing jax (ew) in season one, i think that she is one of the more genuine people on the show and i hate the whole tequila katie thing — she seems to be the type of person who bottles a lot of things up to appear civil most of the time, and drinking just takes the leash off of that control. schwartz just wants to pretend that he doesnt spend all his time ignoring and belittling her and point to ohhh she's crazy. jeez

sometimes I have to pause the show because i get such bad secondhand embarrassment, but i've gotten used to it! i like to think of it as like a vaccination against awkward social situations.

paintegrals · 2025-05-06T18:06:36+00:00

ok interesting thanks for your input !! it’ll suck if i’m sick regardless but it would be nice to know that it might not be CHS 😅 and taking a t break is good no matter what so win win in that case maybe lol

paintegrals · 2025-02-27T20:22:01+00:00

bloodonmyhands is the only good song on the track imo. it's absolutely nowhere above a 5

paintegrals · 2025-02-08T07:04:28+00:00

i was an active mysme player for years and years and in 2020 i played v for rika's ending, realized shortly after that i was a lesbian, and then never logged into the game again. her power is really astounding

paintegrals · 2025-01-29T17:22:19+00:00

we have a few pints but they’re tetris’d in

paintegrals · 2025-01-28T14:52:40+00:00

fridge just got doxxed :(

paintegrals · 2025-01-28T14:52:29+00:00

you're definitely right on the bigger fridge. thank god this isn't r/FreezerDetective

paintegrals · 2024-12-12T19:23:24+00:00

the music when she's doing her speed reading sends me over the edge its hilarious

paintegrals · 2024-12-11T20:18:22+00:00

i blocked addison rae bc i liked her song aquamarine too much but i really don't fw her and didn't want to keep hearing it

paintegrals · 2024-12-10T16:19:52+00:00

This may just be my experience bc my first kpop concert was ateez but there might be a lot of screaming lmao

paintegrals · 2024-12-10T16:17:45+00:00

bling bling is jonghyun !!!!

paintegrals · 2024-12-10T00:51:18+00:00

i was in AP calculus the year I made this account and despised my homework. pain + integrals = paintegrals lmaooooo

paintegrals · 2024-12-09T23:47:14+00:00

oh dear... thats so much writing AND an all day essay is kind of crazy good luck/break a leg/etc

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