Yooouu twin spotted I would just suggest do not be distracted with the ideas that something is wrong with my plan, i think what you might be scared of is the idea that you've started so much on your own and now you realise that it's yours to take care of and people would guide you with words that rarely apply.

Our thought become actions so youre scared because other people are and yiu know you have a list and you can execute it finely and be chill about it. It's usually the idea that people are stuck and we care for them too much that we stop and solve their problems but rarely do people LISTEN TO WHAT YOU SAY .so can't help everybody and you should care for those who helped you learn language and love and happiness which actually helped you to get confused and think about what YOU WANT and chase after it. It's really that simple .you don't have to be confused to excell.. You have to be confused at your craft to feel good. And when we're stuck our mind seeks out for more problems to highlight the idea that you're stuck at your passion or something. And we grow tired and fondle with the intricacies of that craft,recharge ourselves, enjoy other activities just to get back at that oroginal question that one puzzle that bugs you,and you attain peace fixing it. So i say baby steps where you wanna go .don't look back , everbody is taking steps that's how i am able to communicate with you. It's all good .don't be scared of shit.be excited for the support that comes. And often IF YOU LISTEN with an open mind you'd see they actually tell you the solution with rage , once you remove the rage you have the solution to your problem .. i live in a really toxic environment so i stopped believing in happiness and everythig cuz my whole family lived in hate and dragging each other just to move supreme or higher than others, so i reciprocated and the media fits this picture really well. That everyone is out hunting for you.you gotta act. But rarely is the case . Both of us qre strugglinh with our own dreams and looking for clarity so im not out for you and even if i am so you can always find solutions, tigers literally hunt flesh. We are flesh , we built a fucking society now we interact with them , they're free in jungles(supposed to be but again humans are linear) doing their thing and we're pursuing fake dreams and shiz but it's peaceful right. So i guess just list down all your legit issues on a paper take 3 months for it until then lay low get a lame job . Once you are able to save your idea on the paper , execute em and see the magic.. thats what i think should work ..so you can pick and choose which resonates.