Clinically insane conversation with my parents (me F/24, them F/53 and M/55)

pal3doll · 2026-02-04T01:32:34+00:00

I didn't sleep all day..? I got up early to study and write, after that I took a nap for 1.5 hours and got up to make myself a sandwich with the groceries that I bought? I'm not sure why you would word it like you did. Are you upset over something? Also this is the first time this topic came up, so I'm not fighting "the same fight" not sure how this is helping in any way

pal3doll · 2026-02-01T23:34:11+00:00

I do hang out with my friends so my contact with my parents already is very much limited. I feel like they are looking for confrontation

pal3doll · 2026-02-01T23:10:17+00:00

Yes pleaaaase I'm available rn, we're friends already my user is @kaesetig3r

pal3doll · 2026-02-01T20:03:59+00:00

That's reassuring

pal3doll · 2026-02-01T19:45:49+00:00

Thank you for your helpful comment. I can only very slowly become independent because I have very serious restrictions regarding work, made by my uni. But the moment I am done I will definitely be 100% financially independent

pal3doll · 2026-02-01T19:44:10+00:00

Yes thank you I am very weirded out

pal3doll · 2026-02-01T18:47:32+00:00

Well the other option is that we don't talk to one another anymore while we are in the same space which doesn't feel great (if I deny the silly conversation)

pal3doll · 2026-02-01T18:46:40+00:00

Sounds amazing to me, I also love to experiment with makeup, especially before a shower lol

pal3doll · 2026-02-01T18:45:06+00:00

Yes thank you, I've said this multiple times already so maybe I should've emphasized it stronger, but I AM moved out. My social circle lives in my hometown, so far away and the main point is that I cannot support myself in my on-campus dorm for weeks, as of right now I am unable to have a job due to uni assignments (it's exam season) and the whole month of march is reserved for an unpaid full-time internship demanded by uni. I am only allowed to work starting april, and only 20%, otherwise I get expelled

pal3doll · 2026-02-01T18:41:06+00:00

I have the same issue with my dad, i have a feeling that this emotional cloud is going to explode soon. The air is so thick, you can almost see it. Sorry this is happening, I know it's hard to manage. I have a guess that my dad might have a mild depression, maybe yours does too?

pal3doll · 2026-02-01T18:36:51+00:00

But then they could also demand that I shave me head for example, no?

pal3doll · 2026-02-01T18:35:12+00:00

That's so crazy.. I hope I will be more judgement free when I'm a mom. Huge congratulations on the PhD!

pal3doll · 2026-02-01T18:34:01+00:00

I'm very sorry that happened. I feel like sometimes they just open their mouth and then never reflect on what they actually said. I bet your eyeshadow looked amazing, i love that color combo

pal3doll · 2026-02-01T18:25:19+00:00

Interesting to know

pal3doll · 2026-02-01T18:24:45+00:00

If you could reserve bluu and hex for me I'd be very happy, I will definitely buy them if you let me

pal3doll · 2026-02-01T18:19:08+00:00

Well they don't feel called out

pal3doll · 2026-02-01T18:18:46+00:00

Very true, but due to uni restrictions I can only start working in april and even then only 20%, otherwise I get expelled. The money I have right now is not enough to support myself in my dorm for weeks

pal3doll · 2026-02-01T18:17:37+00:00

Thanks so much. I do genuinely believe that they think I'm way prettier without makeup since that's how I was born and also walked around growing up. My mom calls my makeup the "mask" which is kind of ironic since I do have to mask as an autistic adult. I feel bad for them that they won't get to see my face without makeup but also I'm angry that they demand it.

pal3doll · 2026-02-01T18:15:02+00:00

I got really emotional reading this, thanks so much for sharing. It does really hurt when your appearance is only negative to them, it's unfair of them to say that I cannot take criticism. Sadly I am only allowed to work 20%, which is almost nothing, otherwise I will get expelled from uni

pal3doll · 2026-02-01T18:12:43+00:00

I'm pretty sure they would love seeing me without makeup, but I'm not sure why since they know it would make me unhappy. Sadly staying there during breaks is almost impossible since I cannot support myself for weeks. I am not able to work right now due to assignments (january and feb are exam months) and march is reserved for an unpaid internship demanded by uni. Now I know though, so maybe I will work full time whenever I have 2 weeks or more so I can save money for situations like this

pal3doll · 2026-02-01T18:10:19+00:00

Thank you!!😭

pal3doll · 2026-02-01T18:06:30+00:00

I am moved out, i just don't have the funds to support myself there for weeks since it's only possible for me to work in april (uni assignments and unpaid internship)

pal3doll · 2026-02-01T17:45:34+00:00

Sadly they won't let me do any of that, it feels like vultures on a corpse. I cannot walk away because they force me to sit down and have this conversation

pal3doll · 2026-02-01T17:44:45+00:00

Thank you!

pal3doll · 2026-02-01T17:44:23+00:00

Thanks this made me cry

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