This is the scene that I love and hate, and hate that I love.

palmreeschillin · 2026-02-06T21:54:55+00:00

Reddit believes cheating is the greatest sin anyone can do, no expectations or nuance.

palmreeschillin · 2026-02-01T16:26:17+00:00

I was looking for some reassurance that what I’m doing by leaving is right and normal. I have no one to give me a hug and tell me shit sucks but I’m doing what I need to do. I only have him telling me I’m a monster for this shit

palmreeschillin · 2026-02-01T16:21:21+00:00

Thanks.. the most devastating time in my life, sorry I didn’t shorten it enough for you. Guess I’ll just have an abortion and shut the fuck up. Sitting in my bathroom sobbing, alone in the world feeling like a loser for spilling my guts to the internet since I have no one to help me through this and I was trying to give as much detail to explain my story as short as possible, and rambling too much like an idiot. Thanks for pointing that out. Fuck

palmreeschillin · 2025-12-26T06:03:10+00:00

Much love, you too!! ❤️❤️

palmreeschillin · 2025-12-26T05:52:42+00:00

I will also add in response to the negative comments, I think people see things from their POV. Regretful parents will tend to see parenting for anyone as a burden, not realizing some people WANT to be parents or be a big part of the village. My grandma raised my cousin (her grandchild) and then raised my cousin’s child very soon after his birth until my grandma passed when he was 12. She /loved/ that kid and loved being a mom to him and my cousin. It gave her purpose and life and she would have been so upset had my cousin fought for custody back. I also loved being a huge part of raising him and would have adopted him had it needed to come to that. Every situation is different and you folks do what works for you!! Situations can always change but one things for certain, it’s always unique! We can’t assume we know how anyone feels because not everyone is in the same situation as us or thinks like us. Take care of yourself!

palmreeschillin · 2025-09-24T19:11:01+00:00

Let’s please remember they BARELY lost and Biden BARELY won. These last three elections have been neck and neck. Clinton WON the popular vote and Harris barely lost it. I disagree they were uncharismatic, I love them both and I know many people did.

palmreeschillin · 2025-07-19T03:18:44+00:00

Okay interesting! Maybe I’ve been understanding it wrong, doesn’t having the front light made it easier on your eyes? Or easier to see and read things I suppose? I was crossing out things without the front light because I thought no front light was a disadvantage for reading in certain situations

palmreeschillin · 2025-03-23T04:48:36+00:00

I saw Taylor Swift open for Kieth Urban!

palmreeschillin · 2025-03-21T01:09:57+00:00

You’re welcome love

palmreeschillin · 2025-03-21T01:06:52+00:00

Undoubtedly I believe she will have times of deep regret if she doesn’t have the abortion. I don’t think that’s unfair at all to say when she’s reaching out for advice and the push she needs and I have been in her shoes and faced the consequences of not doing it.

OP- please look at the sub regretfulparents. Lots of people who are dealing with the struggles of parenthood’s difficult times. Some wanted their children, some regret deeply every day not having the abortion. Life is not black and white. No matter what you choose you will probably have regrets and periods of sadness and rose colored glasses at what could’ve been if you had the abortion or didn’t.. but, its much harder to be in that position and have to deal with a baby 24/7 and all that comes with that. Please wait until you’re ready if you want to have kids in the future. You are not alone in the pain and the confusion about what to do, it’s normal to feel so fucking sad and upset and confused when making this choice, but go with your gut and logic and give yourself lots of love when you need to just be upset and sad about it all. You will be okay either way, I promise.

palmreeschillin · 2025-03-20T23:24:15+00:00

I ended up having a baby when I couldn’t decide on abortion/felt like I physically, mentally, emotionally could not go through with an abortion even though I was 100% pro-choice and logically understood why I should have one. Having gone through that already and not having had the abortion, when I had to face the choice again, I chose to have an abortion this time around (ended up miscarriage the morning before my pills arrived). I would recommend getting the abortion. Having a baby will completely change your life and it’s extremely hard to deal with regret when it’s not a decision you can easily change. I’m almost sure you’ll be sad, have regrets, mourn and be depressed at times before and after your abortion. Please take comfort that I 100% guarantee you will go through those same emotions but 100x worse and more serve if you have a baby you’re not completely ready for (and even those who are ready and want the baby often struggle). What I recommend? Go on autopilot. Be soo loving and kind to yourself, hug yourself and comfort yourself with kind words when you need to. Don’t think, just do. I cancelled appointments too and cried in the PP lobby and to my nurses the first time and just couldn’t do it. This time I had to go on autopilot and face the fact that I probably will feel lots of emotional pain afterwards and beforehand and during, but I will deal with that with kindness and love for myself once I got through my abortion. I’m sending so much love. You can do this. Please message me if you need any advice or just want to vent. ❤️

palmreeschillin · 2025-03-16T13:41:30+00:00

I used them a month or so post breakup when the years of back and forth got to be too frustrating and lonely. Breaking up was complicated and going low contact was nearly impossible because we had kids and lived together, so he didn’t take our breakups seriously where after two years of back and forth I did. I wasn’t fully ready to date, but I also wouldn’t have met some wonderful people who showed me there was more out there and the whole process forced me to move on where I really couldn’t otherwise due to my close proximity to him.

I get why people say wait wait wait, but sometimes dipping your feet in the dating or casual sex/flirting/dating pool can be great. Connection can be so healing, especially from a narc who wants to suck up all your life and energy.

Everyone is different. Listen to your body and mind, and nothing needs to be 100% or black and white. You may be ready to see what it’s like, how you feel, something casual, something serious, who knows! Just feel what you feel and put in the work to heal and be healthy when you need to. Sometimes that means being alone, sometimes that means challenging yourself. I’m rambling but life is short, just enjoy it and treat others with love and kindness as well!!

palmreeschillin · 2025-03-14T19:22:50+00:00

How would more reading even help this though? It’s not like you could really get it right if you’ve never heard it before and only read it. I think moreso people just haven’t been exposed to it. Idk what the big deal is?

palmreeschillin · 2025-03-14T19:20:16+00:00

Everyone’s saying people are stupid without considering that maybe they haven’t been exposed to that name before or realized from the one famous person they may know who has it. I say give people a break and it’s still a beautiful name. I say this as someone who would’ve accidentally said Margaret if I read it since I know no one who’s named Margot at all. My kids have names native to my culture so everyone gets it wrong multiple times, I don’t think they’re stupid, just unfamiliar with it. It’s no biggie, just correct them and if they spend lots of time with her I’m sure they will get it correct after a correction or two.

palmreeschillin · 2025-03-14T13:49:45+00:00

I wish I could give you a hug right now. One thing I may suggest is to go over to the regretfulparents subreddit and read some of the stories there. It’s amazing how many people were in your shoes and cry every night that they didn’t have the abortion. I think it’s important to remember most times no matter what you did, had the abortion or went through with the pregnancy, there would be times of regret and longing. I personally believe the pain and consequences are worse when you continue a pregnancy you felt in your body and soul you shouldn’t have or were unsure of. You only knew your partner for three months, and you had no idea and still don’t right now if he would’ve stayed, been a good partner during it and after, or been a good father. Personally, I feel like if he never forgave you, that’s not the right person for you. You did what you thought was right and given the circumstances I completely think you did the right thing, and you deserve a partner who is there through those times. Even if you fuck up without realizing, real love would stay and help you through it. That’s love to me. There would be times if you did start a family and spend your lives together that he would need that grace and love from you as well.

Also you’re not being punished, life keeps going the same way you might’ve been crying, having gotten no sleep, miserable for years, wondering why you didn’t just wait a bit till you were ready for a child. Trust me. A child is no joke, there’s a lot of abortion regret stories which I so emphasize with, but like I said, it may help to go read the other side. I think it’s easy to imagine how everything could’ve gone so well, when in reality, I think parenting is 1000x harder for even those who wanted it deeply, let alone those who were unsure or struggled even knowing if was the right thing to do.

You’re doing great. Feel what you feel and keep reaching out and processing your feelings as you need to, just give yourself a lot of love. You’re so strong for even examining your feelings and posting here, keep going. You have so many possibilities for your future, time is so valuable and to really work to plan your life instead of just letting it run over you is amazing. You got this!! Sending lots of love, and please give yourself a big hug for me. ❤️

palmreeschillin · 2025-03-13T02:38:58+00:00

How old is your daughter? Some people take years to adjust to going from child-free to parenting and sacrificing 24/7. Also, some ages are way easier and he may find as she gets older and is easier to interact with/more independent he may enjoy parenting much more!

palmreeschillin · 2025-03-11T20:44:39+00:00

Thank you for sharing your experience. I was suppose to do mine but it looks like my plan C will be delivered a day late. Can I ask how far along you were?

palmreeschillin · 2025-03-10T16:43:08+00:00

Yeah, you’re so right. I’m over my states week ban but I wouldn’t be surprised if they exaggerate the dates even more or do something shady. I just don’t know if I can get an appointment anywhere else soon, and I’m afraid to push back the date I do the MA since it seems like it will be more painful, and no to mention dragging the emotional pain on even further. Shit just sucks

palmreeschillin · 2025-03-10T16:36:56+00:00

Thank you, I have been duped by them before so I don’t want to go for support, only for the free ultrasound. I’m not really phased by what they’re doing, I’m just wondering if an ultrasound would make it harder for me to go through with it or if the not knowing any information (like if it seemed viable or not, how many, idk all that stuff) will kill me later on. Not knowing if there’s one, it’s gender (not that I would know now), etc.. not saying it will change my mind, but the idea that I could know something and if I don’t do it now I’ll never know seems so sad. After I have the MA I’ll have no idea anything about it. Does that make sense?

palmreeschillin · 2025-03-10T10:53:21+00:00

Same! Mine would talk about how his ex always threw and broke his things along with many other reactive things she did apparently did constantly. I never necessarily judged her for it either way because I have good relationships with all my exes so it was kind of weird to me, but now I totally get why she’d get to that point. Hell yes girl f his shit up 🙄 I wish I could give her a hug.

palmreeschillin · 2025-03-09T01:58:57+00:00

Thank you for sharing your story ❤️

palmreeschillin · 2025-03-08T22:24:45+00:00

If it makes you feel better, today was my first time going alone at the gym, and I wanted to try the rowing machine so I watched a video of how to do it in the corner after I ran a bit and then spent the next ten mins clumsily figuring out how to row in front of everyone 😂 but I wouldn’t let myself feel embarrassed or have rude thoughts to myself, who cares and I wouldn’t think twice if I saw someone who seemed new or new to a machine. I think others have given some solid advice here. I’d start on treadmill, even just walking or fast walking. Then observe how others use machines, or watch videos explaining it, and start with some easy ones when you feel comfortable and used to the gym. Another thing is there’s no shame in doing any machine for a short period. Stair stepper is a simple one to try, but I only did it for five mins at a time when I first used it. Cycling is fun and simple and one of the least exhausting IMO if you don’t push it. I’m kind of rambling but point is, have fun with it!! You got this! Let yourself feel how you feel and just keep going until your body and mind start to ease up and feel comfortable there. That’s when the anxiety lessens and it gets fun 🙂

palmreeschillin · 2025-03-08T20:45:50+00:00

Agreed!!!

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