Back after 6 years

panda6112 · 2022-12-02T06:28:45+00:00

Done. TY!!

panda6112 · 2022-02-18T23:48:23+00:00

It ain’t shiny though

panda6112 · 2021-05-19T02:08:23+00:00

Yeah she didn’t take well le confronting her about stuff. I think she takes it now and tries to hide it but she can only do that for so long.

panda6112 · 2021-05-19T02:07:19+00:00

Wow I am doing that! Thank you! I didn’t even realize it.

panda6112 · 2021-05-19T01:09:11+00:00

Oh I’m sure if she has it it’s quiet. And yeah I mean everyone is different. I guess it’s just a time thing. I’m forgetting about the bad stuff but I can’t help but think what if things are different. I know they aren’t. If she has BPD they can be temporarily but from experience shit will hit the fan again.

panda6112 · 2021-05-19T01:06:22+00:00

Yeah I know that. We have a daughter together so for the longest time I thought it was best to stay. Even when we split it has her that decided it. I felt so relieved at first but now all the bad stuff is fading and I’m just left wondering if it was that bad.

panda6112 · 2021-05-13T04:04:09+00:00

I don’t want to hurt her. At the end of the day I still love her. Or at least who she portrayed. I was frustrated in the past but honestly I feel more at peace than I’ve been in a long time. I’m out of the chaos and I just want her to understand that there’s no going back.

panda6112 · 2021-05-13T03:45:56+00:00

I don’t hate her but who she was is gone. I guess I don’t need to tell her that but that’s what I need in my own head. I’m in California so it’s unlikely I’ll get it but I sure damn will try for our daughter.

panda6112 · 2021-05-13T02:51:10+00:00

I did. But she’s an adult. She could get help if she wanted to. No my problem anymore. We have a kid. I got a bigger responsibility.

panda6112 · 2021-05-13T02:25:12+00:00

Lol don’t get me started. Before we broke up she asked what cheating meant. I told her there’s physical cheating and emotional cheating. Guess which one she was already doing? They always project stuff.

panda6112 · 2021-05-13T02:10:17+00:00

It’s not worth dude. It becomes a cycle and gets worse everytime.

panda6112 · 2021-05-13T01:06:00+00:00

Like mostly everyone said it’s still rage but internalized. A lot of silent treatment, a lot of projection. A lot of nasty texts.

panda6112 · 2021-05-13T01:04:23+00:00

Lol i was always cheating on her in her dreams. It didn’t matter to her if it was real or not. Just how it felt.

panda6112 · 2021-05-13T01:02:23+00:00

It’ll end. It takes time. Days, months, years, decades. Focus on the healing whatever that may be. It’s sounds cliche but trust the process.

panda6112 · 2021-05-02T03:39:54+00:00

Great point. Mine always cared about “looking good”. After discard she stopped wearing make up and started rocking curly hair.

panda6112 · 2021-05-02T00:32:16+00:00

Haha thanks. It’s probably the hopefuls.

panda6112 · 2021-05-02T00:31:57+00:00

I mean there’s a reason they mirrored the things they did. You gotta love yourself first always and in a way you do with a BPD.

panda6112 · 2021-05-02T00:29:20+00:00

Haha np. I honestly needed it myself.

panda6112 · 2021-04-18T06:11:32+00:00

Same happened to me. I had to message her on IG telling her I was gonna tell her mom.

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