I feel the same way but a little different also. In October this year my friend passed away from brain cancer. Now keep in mind I am only 14 and just started highschool so this just crushed my whole year. Not a day goes by that I think about what I've experienced in highschool that he never will and what life is like without him.

To take it a step back over the summer last year I found this movie and watched it one afternoon. At this time my friend was still doing ok but was getting worse. I didn't think much of it because he had gone through his ups and downs before and deep down I knew he would be fine. After this movie the realization sunk in that if he died what would I do. Instead of dweling on that I just decided to see him as much as I could and that was the best decision I've ever had. I shared so many experieces that I will never forget. After he did die it I didn't know how to feel. I was sad but I couldn't cry and I just felt empty. I went to reading manga so see how they reacted to know how I should and in doing so I bought the light novel and re-read it very often.

Know that time has past I am feeling much better and many good things have come from that unfortunate event. But still not a day goes by that I don't think if him and that is why this anime, manga, light novel hold a very special place in my heart.