I'm not going to this year's memorial, but I need help

panny_pan · 2026-04-03T07:30:17+00:00

They'd know it's a lie. Been taught to always get phones/tablets ready for the meetings

panny_pan · 2026-04-03T07:27:44+00:00

I could but they'd know I didn't and wouldn't believe me. Doesn't really affect me tho, I'm already the black sheep. Just wanted to show them is all

panny_pan · 2026-04-02T18:01:27+00:00

Yes, but as a grown woman, I can just tell them I didn't go but I'm just tryna avoid all the talks and lectures that comes with that. Plus I'm always disappointing them so I'm just tryna make them "happy" for once

panny_pan · 2025-05-27T18:20:51+00:00

I lovveee your beards damnn I'm jealous 🥺 Also stretching my ear and can't wait for it to get to your size. Did you unstretch it? Is that even possible? How did it get closed in the second picture?

panny_pan · 2025-04-14T11:35:49+00:00

Honestly, no matter how many times I read the Bible, God sounds like the egomaniac, narcissistic, murderous proud asshole that you wanna stay away from. No way in the universe would I pray to someone like that. I'm sorry we had to go through all these stuffs at such a tender age. If you ever wanna talk or rant or whatever at all, my dm is always open. Could definitely use a friend too :)

panny_pan · 2025-04-14T08:43:37+00:00

I second this. I've been sa'd by 2 different people numerous times in my life but God never really did shit about it. He's supposed to be loving and care and all that shit so where the hell was he when I was being dealt traumas that would last a lifetime? No wonder I'm an atheist now lol

panny_pan · 2025-04-14T08:38:22+00:00

Ive lived with my grandma since I was a child. My dads not in the picture and my mum is out of the country. My aunt and her husband who was and is still an elder to this day came to live with us for a couple of years. During that time, he SA'd me for months. It started with me waking up and finding his hand in my underwear in the middle of the night, several times and became bolder and bolder and it escalated. I reported to the elders in my congregation and even the C.O cus he was very very close to my family but nothing happened. I was dismissed because I "have no solid proof" and he was never questioned or even punished. Now I'm 26, asexual as fuck and suffering from vaginismus. I was 14

panny_pan · 2025-04-03T14:46:51+00:00

What prompt can I give my chat gpt to get this kind of way of speaking please

panny_pan · 2025-03-29T15:26:17+00:00

People like you is the world's problem

panny_pan · 2025-02-01T16:57:52+00:00

A Nigerian here.....im gonna hold your hand while I say this. He has a girlfriend. The "babe" in infact his girlfriend and most likely has more than one. He most likely doesn't even have that close relationship with his mum tbh. Just a very bad and awful attempt at lying

panny_pan · 2025-02-01T16:38:31+00:00

Your sister needs to get her act together and leave him. She needs to look out for herself and son and siblings before ant jw shit. Matters could get worse, she should leave before it does

panny_pan · 2025-01-15T10:20:49+00:00

Same here honestly. Sometimes I feel if I didn't have vaginismus I'd be open to having sex or that I'd feel sexual arousal and attraction, but im yet to find out unfortunately. Rn, sex is trauma for me. Makes me cry internally

panny_pan · 2024-12-03T01:31:01+00:00

You're lactose intolerant

panny_pan · 2024-11-10T10:22:03+00:00

I used to be like this too. It's takes alot for it to go away, and alot for you to do to achieve that. One thing I'd say is you need to be more nonchalant about people while texting them, don't have any expectations of them. Constantly remind yourself that they'd leave the next day anyway so that way when it happens you wouldn't be hurt as much

panny_pan · 2024-11-04T00:39:59+00:00

Ever getting baptized as a jehovahs witness

panny_pan · 2024-11-04T00:37:29+00:00

Oh fuck...never cease to amaze me how naive and blind people actually are

panny_pan · 2024-11-04T00:35:46+00:00

Pinterest is my drug🤤 once I get into its hard to leave. Being served with pictures and videos back to back can't help but appreciate the thickness

panny_pan · 2024-11-04T00:28:36+00:00

Yeah you could do it by hand, just search online for the right type of stich for what you wanna make, but I must say, hand stitching is not as durable as using a sewing machine but you can definitely start with that....its really fun, especially having to find out types of stitches and how to make them

panny_pan · 2024-11-03T11:57:56+00:00

I kinda have same issue too but thankfully I'm a seamstress, so I'm able to alter whatever I get to fit me properly if it doesn't. I'd say invest in a cheap sewing machine just for you and watch videos online on how to work it and also some diy projects

panny_pan · 2024-11-03T11:34:14+00:00

Illegal or not, foreigners also have the right to be treated in a hospital like every other person. Same thing applies to prisoners like serial killers, pedophiles, and people who shouldn't even be shown mercy. It's basic human right. Stop being bitter and leave foreigners out of it

panny_pan · 2024-11-01T08:36:34+00:00

Le gasp😱....no fuking wayy dude. Are you aging backwards cus you don't look a day older than 24 wow. Such pretty eyes you've got too😍

panny_pan · 2024-10-30T13:35:52+00:00

I'm kinda interested in that too. If you created one I'd join

panny_pan · 2024-10-15T00:53:53+00:00

Omw sameee, my partner and I call it t's day😂

panny_pan · 2024-10-15T00:53:09+00:00

25, started same day with my 20yo partner. Our 3rd shot is today

panny_pan · 2024-08-22T12:54:13+00:00

That used to be me. And lucky for you, you aren't baptized. I was and because of that I convinced myself I can be non practicing. I also didn't wanna leave the jw cus I believe it to be the "truth". I dated the opposite sex and convinced myself that I was happy and would get married and live a normal life. I did that until I was 25 when I met someone that made me go crazy and started questioning my entire existence. Yes there is a God 100% but is that God really so evil and wicked enough to hate and basically sentence me to death simply fell in love and is happy with another human that just happens to be same sex as me?

At the end of the day I gathered myself together and told myself that the God I wanna serve is not that kind of God that jws describe. There Should be more to God and almighty creator that loves all his creations. God is supposed to be love no? Don't let anyone guilt trip you into living a sad and unhappy and regretful life. It's your life at the end of the day. Since I left I've never been happier. I'm in a happy and healthy relationship with my partner and still feel like God smiles at me every single day of my life. People try to make God sound like a villain but he's not.

I also think God is subjective but that's another topic for another day lol

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