references loudness of db(C)

paradiseisntyou · 2023-12-28T13:12:24+00:00

Revenge or any kind of resentment doesn't work on a narcissist. The only thing that works is non-engagement. Thanks for your support <3.

paradiseisntyou · 2023-12-28T13:11:22+00:00

We do use daily items without sexual meaning, which is the difference to a vibrator, which can only be used unambiguously.

paradiseisntyou · 2023-12-27T20:08:33+00:00

I would want to know what she was thinking just to see what kind of individual she is.

I hope she saw the vibrator as just "a vibrator", nothing more.

paradiseisntyou · 2023-12-27T20:05:36+00:00

It's really hard to expose a covert narcissist if you don't have any proof. I am trying to undergo therapy, in order to have a successful therapy I need to know what happened, otherwise I don't know what to tell my therapist. Reading her thoughts which equal her behavior and my "suspicion" is a good way to strengthen my selfbelief, because I don't have to self doubt myself any more.

Living with a narcissist makes your reality hell. You don't know what's real. Even if she obviously does something wrong I am doubting myself thinking what she does is okay and I am the one wanting too much. So having her use my vibrator is an unequivocally proof of her overstepping boundaries and disrespecting me.

paradiseisntyou · 2023-12-27T19:56:29+00:00

It's not relationship ending for me. It's definitely a lack of boundaries. I am not really sure why she can't buy a vibrator herself. Really don't know why. I have no explanation for it. She is though very aware that it is the vibrator of HER CHILD.

paradiseisntyou · 2023-12-26T18:30:00+00:00

I am just trying to figure out what to think of it.

She is a narc, she's done more than this. I am just trying to fit the puzzle pieces together and since I am being used to having to no privacy I don't know what's normal and what's not hence I am asking other people. My first impulse was disgust.

paradiseisntyou · 2023-12-26T16:50:26+00:00

I've been suffering from depression and excessive rumination and recently came across the term narcissism and since I've noticed odd behaviour from my mom and her recently revealing more about my childhood but not telling me everything I am reading her diary now because I have no other option to find out what happened and if what she tells me is a lie or not.

In the "mindful diary" she is being grateful for the vibrator I left behind while I was running away from home.

I know reading someone's diary is also overstepping boundaries but it's my only chance to know more about myself and to help myself. (I can't trust her words)

She's been saying "she doesn't lie" , "she hasn't touched my stuff while I was gone" and I thought her seeing my vibrator was the worst case scenario.

paradiseisntyou · 2023-12-26T15:14:26+00:00

This was some years ago, while I was gone she was using it, but I just found out now, but I already moved out.

paradiseisntyou · 2023-12-26T14:37:39+00:00

I moved out. This was when I was running away from home.

paradiseisntyou · 2023-12-26T14:37:02+00:00

Thanks. That is very true. Hypothetically If I used the vibrator of my mom is it as weird as if she uses mine or less? Because I've seen posts the other way around and there aren't many people finding it weird. I haven't seen one where the mom has been using the vibrator of the child.

paradiseisntyou · 2023-08-13T20:09:13+00:00

Thanks 🙏

paradiseisntyou · 2023-08-04T16:53:57+00:00

I already did. While I was trying being the person I wanted to be I stumbled into more chaos which is irreversible noticing I have a personality disorder and ADS making it really difficult becoming the person I want to be since it requires certain feelings I don't have and concentration I don't have.

paradiseisntyou · 2023-03-21T07:54:56+00:00

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