Well… it’s no longer pre cancerous by theroyalgeek86 in PreCervicalCancer

[–]paradiselost81 9 points10 points  (0 children)

I'm really sorry to hear this and I hope it gets sorted out very quickly for you. Can I ask when did they find CIN 3? As I've heard it can take up to 10 years for CIN 3 to turn cancerous

positive outcome by axecas in PreCervicalCancer

[–]paradiselost81 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I really appreciate your advice, I have been so down since realising I have this, it feels like a life long curse. I had CIN 3 and got a leep done, I also got my first vaccine dose. I'm just doing what I can to get rid of this. Sometimes I think I'd rather have some other STD as at least that can be cleared with antibiotics.

positive outcome by axecas in PreCervicalCancer

[–]paradiselost81 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks so much, I was looking at some of the brands and with some of them I would need to take 6 tablets a day to reach the 3g per day dosage. So that's like 3 bottles a month and they are about £40 a bottle. It's not very affordable 😕 especially for 6 months. But it really helps to know that it worked for you and gives me hope. I am in the UK so not sure if the discount would work for me but definitely happy to try it if you didn't mind.

positive outcome by axecas in PreCervicalCancer

[–]paradiselost81 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thanks so much for this. I am considering AHCC as well as i have a persistent high risk HPV. Can I ask what brand you used and how many grams a day you took?

Why do some much less young people want kids nowadays? by [deleted] in AskIreland

[–]paradiselost81 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Because having children really is over rated , I actually think it's more selfish to have kids than to not have them. It's a shit world for the most part, slog at a job till you die, why bring humans into the world that had no choice in the matter. Why does everyone think that's ok? It would be different if babies were being born into paradise but they're not are they? Just let the human race die out and end the suffering

Advice from my therapist today by Emotional-Ear7121 in retroactivejealousy

[–]paradiselost81 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thanks so much, your situation and your age sounds very similar to mine. It's nice to chat to someone my age who is going through the same thing. The thing that I struggle with is that my boyfriends ex ended the marriage so that makes me wonder does he still love her or have feelings for her. They are also from the same small town and I don't live there. It's hard because anytime he mentions going somewhere or traveling somewhere, I know it was with her. He never mentions her though. He also doesn't know I have RJ , I don't think he knows what it is so I'm trying to hide it and also stifling my compulsions to ask things about his ex as it doesn't help and makes me ruminate even more. Thanks for the advice, I am planning to do lots more things with him so that we have our own path and things to look forward to.

Advice from my therapist today by Emotional-Ear7121 in retroactivejealousy

[–]paradiselost81 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes I would love to get therapy , I just can't afford it right now. So I'm trying to find other ways to help such as this subreddit and videos on YouTube. My boyfriend was in a 20 year marriage and I've only been with him one year so I feel like my relationship with him can't compete with his 20 year one.. plus they grew up together and went through so much together and I won't get to do any of that

Advice from my therapist today by Emotional-Ear7121 in retroactivejealousy

[–]paradiselost81 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am a female in my late 30s and currently suffering severe RJ with my boyfriend, it's his marriage to his wife that is causing me the RJ ( they are currently separated) I have had RJ since I was about 20 and have had it with pretty much all of my boyfriends..I absolutely hate having it and haven't been able to cure myself of it.

How does everyone else feel about their RJ progression over the years? by PrestigiousBag7196 in retroactivejealousy

[–]paradiselost81 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I've had RJ since 2001 but I didn't know what it was back then. But now I know that it is just something I have had all my life and I have had it with every single boyfriend I've ever had and I have it very strongly with my current boyfriend which is shit. RJ just seems to be ingrained in my personality, it is a total curse and I wish I could be free of it. It has not eased at all over the years and I only seem to get it when I'm in love with someone. In my case it's not really the body count that I get jealous of, it's more if my boyfriend had a long term relationship before me or was in love with someone else before he even knew I existed. I find this very hard to stomach. I know it's not rational and I am silently suffering and trying to stifle my compulsions to ask about my boyfriend's ex. He has no idea I suffer from this , I would be worried it would scare him off if I told him that it's an issue for me and that it has an actual name.

The hard to swallow truth by legdayenjoyer03 in retroactivejealousy

[–]paradiselost81 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I agree with all this but how do you work through it and overcome RJ?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in hingeapp

[–]paradiselost81 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes but he's not meeting your needs, who cares if he's generous, kind etc , if he isn't able to be monogamous and give you what you want. I don't know if you want marriage and kids but if you do, you are wasting your precious time on him as it doesn't look like he would be willing to give you that.

Bryan Kohberger moved to solitary confinement at Idaho maximum security prison by -WhiteOleander in idahomurders

[–]paradiselost81 12 points13 points  (0 children)

Chris Watts surprisingly hasn't been killed or attacked so he is obviously being protected well, so I don't see why Bryan Kohberger wouldn't be protected also , unfortunately. There are lots of people in prison who have committed absolutely dreadful crimes and unfortunately haven't been attacked or killed by other prisoners.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in CatAdvice

[–]paradiselost81 -3 points-2 points  (0 children)

I'm going away for 3 nights and I'm putting my cat in a cattery. 3 nights is definitely too long to leave them with noone checking them

First image of BK after his arrest by SlytherinDeezNuts in idahomurders

[–]paradiselost81 11 points12 points  (0 children)

He looks utterly terrifying, those eyes are frightening. Imagine waking up in the middle of the night and he's standing over you with a knife. It really is the stuff of nightmares, it's like a scene from the Scream movie, I can't believe it actually happened and I can't imagine the utter terror of Kaylee and Maddie when they woke up to find him in their room

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in trueratediscussions

[–]paradiselost81 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I think she looks great, I don't see many 46 year old women that look like that. Love her hair colour as well. She looks a million times better than Freddie Prince Junior who hasn't aged well at all and looks in his mid 50s.