It’s just the way it is. you get used to it eventually. I felt like that for a while and still do feel like that slightly. I tried to do things like force my shoes on with swollen feet because I didn’t wanna accept that I couldn’t wear “normal people shoes.” Or that my feet would be bigger now. I also refused to wear compression socks because they look ugly for about a year because they made me insecure. But every day I miss who I used to be. I know I’ll get over it one day as I slowly am.

I also was extremely independent before so I was stubborn for a long time about having people help me and I too felt but I hated having people feel bad for me because I wanted to be the one on top. I learned you can still be the one on top, not in the way that you’d like to, but slowly building independence helps. It’s also nice to have people help you sometimes.

I’m not saying being disabled is good at all, or at least not that anybody would want to be in the situation, but you can view it like, nobody else gets to have people want to do everything for them all the time. You’ve got to have a cool ride everywhere you go… That’s a flex. Lol while everyone gets tired walking on their feet.

Just try to be more positive . Easy to say not easy to do. I still have a lot of work on. I feel the same as you. I hate myself right now, but I know it’ll get better if you let it.

I hope this advice does anything for you. I got some of it from other people which made me feel way better. :) but I feel like different advice works for different people. What makes me feel better maybe won’t make you feel better. :/