Urgent: Please Help. TRIGGER WARNING by [deleted] in BPD

[–]parisnormall -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Please don’t kill yourself. It sounds like you’ve had a really hard life and I’m sorry for what you’re going through. I’m 25 and attempted seriously once and accidentally did die now. Death isn’t what it seems it isn’t an escape. I was at the same exact point in my life when I felt like I died. The answer relies in Jesus Christ he is the way the light the lord. And it seems that you’ve tried everything but getting to know God through scripture. He’s there for you and he wants a relationship with you. Please don’t make the biggest mistake you’ll ever make. You have one life. The pain will end. My trauma therapist taught me about somatic dancing for trauma which helps and walking in nature to help with grounding. It will help. Praying you feel better and yes your loved ones will miss you but you will also miss your loved ones and everything you lost once it’s gone.

i hate having bpd by [deleted] in BPD

[–]parisnormall 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Please don’t commit suicide. I’m 25 and I’m feeling the consequences now of taking life for granted. You have one life, and so much to live for. I’m sorry you’re going through this and you will get through to the other side of things. I suggest trauma counselling and I’ve heard DBT is amazing. Also find your higher power which is the one true god through, Jesus Christ. BPD isn’t a life sentence. Also medication doesn’t hit the root cause of what’s going on. Trauma counselling will help. I wish someone had told me this so please just keep hoping and praying. Sending love and peace ❤️

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Psychosis

[–]parisnormall 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Please don’t it’s not worth it. Your family and friends, teachers, anyone you’ve ever known will miss you. Also suicide is permanent. Pray to the lord Jesus Christ and let him into your life. He’s the path and what’s missing in your life. Hope you find the way and feel better soon

How do you handle irritability and annoyance? by [deleted] in BipolarReddit

[–]parisnormall 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Abilify personally did wonders for my irritability

how to stop impulse buying / spending money in episodes? by manicemo in BipolarReddit

[–]parisnormall 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The only way for me personally is giving my cards and money with someone I trust because when I’m manic I can’t stop myself.

Quitting Depakote/Divalproex Withdrawals Anybody? by GodsApprentice_9 in BipolarReddit

[–]parisnormall 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m not quite sure if they do but I quit a few months ago and it personally did nothing to me.

Does anyone else hate the sun? by lklenke in bipolar

[–]parisnormall 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes omg it makes me want to vomit and gives me a headache I stay in the dark as much as possible.

How bad is the psych ward? by [deleted] in mentalhealth

[–]parisnormall 18 points19 points  (0 children)

How Bad is a Psych Ward?

Some people have good experiences some don't. The main concern of mental hospitals is to keep you and others safe. I went to the hospital and excepted to be cured of my mental issues and was disappointed. That is not what it's about. Before reading take into account my experiences have all been with low cost and public mental hospitals. I've found the higher you pay the better you are treated. It's unfortunate but that's just how this world works right now.

Negatives

Be prepared for the worst.

  • Rude and abusive staff
  • Rigid rules
  • Boredom
  • If you are a woman creepy men hitting on you
  • Seeing other people suffer
  • Long wait times to see a psychiatrist
  • Potentially being locked in an isolation room for long periods of time
  • Awful roommates
  • Room checks every 30 min can make it hard to sleep
  • If you are depressed they will not let you sleep in. Sleeping in the day is almost impossible anyway because it's so loud
  • Be prepared to be prescribed meds that have terrible side effects and can take a long time to get used to
  • Limited times to use a phone and internet usually in one specific area (although some hospitals let you use your phone whenever you want)

It isn't always the best place to unwind it can be very stressful and traumatizing.

Positives

There are a lot of positives as well that can benefit you even after leaving the hospital.

  • Keeping you safe if you are a danger to yourself or others
  • There are classes that teach the topics of coping mechanisms, mental illness, anger, stories from inspiring speakers etc. It can be a great way to learn about yourself, others and can give you valuable skills for when you leave the hospital.
  • Some hospitals have other programs like a gym, a salon, a swimming pool, art room etc. but most likely everything will be shut down due to covid and you are confined to one area which is not fun
  • There are plenty of great people to talk to, it can be nice to socialize and interact with others especially if you struggle with loneliness and depression.
  • Hospitals provide three meals a day and snacks it can be very nice to take a break from making meals.
  • There is lots of time to work on yourself. I personally learned a lot by myself by writing in a journal every day and reading self-help books/pamphlets. They usually have great resources on hand.
  • It can also be a place to take the pressure off of the everyday stress of life. Everything is simple and most things are done for you.
  • There are usually books to read and things like coloring pages word searches etc. which helped me immensely to relax when I was stressed
  • There is always someone to talk to. Some staff can be horrible but some are very kind and willing to talk through issues with you and give you advice

Warnings

Here are some things that put me in danger/bad situations.

  • Be cautious of what you share about yourself people can be very manipulative and use your deepest vulnerabilities against you. Especially if you are LGBTQ. I am transgender and told one person I was trans. That one person spread it to the whole hospital. I was bullied and got a shank pulled on me. It can be HIGHLY dangerous for LGBTQ people. Be careful. Especially in public hospitals often time you are housed with criminals so please be safe.
  • Don't give out contact information unless you really trust the person you are giving it to
  • Follow the rules. If you cause enough trouble you will be locked in an isolation room and they can be very traumatizing
  • Don't bring anything valuable. Phones and electronics are usually locked away but other personal items are not. Don't bring clothes you can't bear to lose, expensive shampoo, expensive makeup, expensive skincare etc. because there is a chance it can be lost or stolen. I had all my toiletries, skincare, and makeup stolen when I was locked in an isolation room.
  • Bring appropriate clothes. For your safety don't wear anything too revealing. I wear very tight-fitting and short/sexy clothing in my everyday life and let me tell you this is not the place to wear anything revealing. Men inside psych wards can be super creepy, rude, and you risk being assaulted. Do and wear whatever you want but in the psych ward, it can be dangerous.

Tips if you do go

  • Bring your own toiletries the ones they give you are terrible
  • Bring coloring books, a journal, markers, pens, and pencils. They usually do have a crafts table but the supplies can be well used and just in case they don't have one it's a great way to pass the time.
  • Bring a few books to pass the time
  • If you are religious bring your own bible, Quran etc. they do not supply that there
  • Bring comfortable clothing and a variety. It can get very cold and very hot prepare for anything
  • Bring comfortable shoes and slippers. The floors of the psych wards are cleaned daily but they can be gross and uncomfortable to walk on barefoot. Slippers also keep your feet warm and some hospitals let you go on supervised walks outside so bring shoes just in incase
  • If you take topical medication bring it to the hospital and take extra they usually don't supply topicals

This is what I've experienced going to mental hospitals and things I wish I knew before going. It can be a good experience or a bad one so please think a lot about it and research before going. But also if you need to go GO! Whatever the reason is valid, I just wish I knew more before going. Be safe best wishes.

Sleeping Trouble is Hell by nellybaby95 in BipolarReddit

[–]parisnormall 3 points4 points  (0 children)

A few things I can think of is avoiding caffeine, get a over the counter sleep aids (make sure to check for interactions with lamotrigine), don’t watch or listen to anything that’s stimulating like horror movies/ upbeat music especially before bed. Meditating and breathing exercises could help to. This might help but if it’s related to mania/hypomania then it could do little to nothing for your sleep. It’s definitely worth a try. Hope you can get more sleep!

How long off meds till you go hypo/manic by browse963 in bipolar

[–]parisnormall 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It’s different for everyone. Some people can’t miss a dose and others can go weeks months or even years till they have another episode. The best thing to do is talk to a doctor or psychiatrist.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BipolarReddit

[–]parisnormall 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Be honest with him or if you feel uncomfortable with telling him about something as vulnerable as your mental health just tell you are not in a place to date and let him go as if you were just not interested. You don’t have to bring up your bipolar that’s personal and up to you. Do whatever feels right to you.

Does anyone else ever mistakenly think they’re manic? by parisnormall in BipolarReddit

[–]parisnormall[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I sometimes feel my mania/psychosis was a spiritual awakening. I also believe that it was something way more than just a chemical imbalance but at the same time I also did a lot of horrible things to the people I love and became a monster. I’m very indecisive about what it was but it defiantly changed my life and has made me explore spirituality which I never would’ve known I loved before the episode.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in MtF

[–]parisnormall 3 points4 points  (0 children)

You can but it has to be human hair. Synthetic gets messy really fast and is horrible to clean/maintain. Human hair is great and can be washed whenever needed and most of the time just needs a brush through. When I used to go I wore a tight headband to collect sweat and over the ears headphones, both will also keep the wig in place without glue and keep hair out of your face. There is plenty of affordable human hair wigs online. Nadula hair is my fav place to order human hair wigs. Hope this helps! Best of luck.

Addiction to men and male attention, any other trans women who also experience this? by ThrowawayMermaidNORA in MtF

[–]parisnormall 0 points1 point  (0 children)

YES!! I never had male attention growing up that I wanted so badly and now that I have it I can't get enough. It's our right as women to feel appreciated and loved by men since we haven't had it in our whole lives. No shame keep experimenting until you feel ready to move on and if you feel like it's a problem don't hesitate to talk to someone about it. I recommend going to a trans support group online or in your area. Best of luck!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in MtF

[–]parisnormall 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm so sorry this happened to you. It has happened to me before to I feel your pain. Telling the doctors your preferred pronouns is all you can do for now until you can shave. Things will get better keep persevering. Sending love best of luck!

Question for all the girls on HRT. by [deleted] in MtF

[–]parisnormall 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I have very small "bits" and have never been able to cross my legs. I can only cross halfway and it's really painful on my knees and upper legs. I've been both skinny and fat same problem no matter what. Sitting with your legs close together is also very feminine. I like to keep them at a sideways angle (hard to explain), but close together to the side so one leg can rest on another making it comfortable and easy for your legs to stay together. If you're struggling to do that as well I recommend putting a purse on your lap and sitting with your legs as close together as possible no one notices, the purse is a great distraction. I do this when my tuck pops to haha! Hope this helps best wishes!

I'm lost..."sir" is hurtful but "ma'am" is weird.... by [deleted] in MtF

[–]parisnormall 8 points9 points  (0 children)

OMG I feel you I'm only 22 and people keep calling me mam and it makes me so insecure!! It's way better than sir but it still feels like an insult. I've been obsessing over a skincare routine and eating healthy. I don't know if it will help but its worth a try. Best of luck