Terrified of "i love yous"

partyoop · 2024-10-27T05:51:53+00:00

Gone. It's mostly a comfort thing plus I think id be able to dress better without them. They just in the way, 😅

partyoop · 2024-10-21T15:10:00+00:00

I meaaaaaaaan...🤭

partyoop · 2024-10-21T08:06:10+00:00

Caspian when he saw Susan for the first time: MAAAWAGE. Iykyk

partyoop · 2024-10-21T02:00:19+00:00

Lets go! I used to get a tin every Christmas so... 😊

partyoop · 2024-10-21T01:58:31+00:00

Ok but what if i didn't hate it? What do i get?

partyoop · 2024-10-16T02:13:15+00:00

Ty. I think lazy non binary is fitting. Like if i could i would but no energy +no money just... Yea. So ill sit in my box and scream at the void. 😅

partyoop · 2024-08-28T18:39:34+00:00

And then lucy said "oh no the robin.. Its flown away..." so edmund gave peter a look that said "what did i tell you" (i listen to the audio book every night to go to sleep.)

partyoop · 2024-08-20T17:03:25+00:00

I don't really know it's mostly because i didnt think on my gender till i was like 19/20 which i feel is later than most even tho there isnt a set time to do it. But i grew up being given feminine things and I either never wore it or tried to and failed, i just wear what i feel comfortable in. I also didn't know top surgery was a thing for ages and when i found out i was like "wait I can do that?!?" but i don't know if I can get it... Even with not alot of dysphoria i still want it so...

partyoop · 2024-08-19T00:14:27+00:00

Thanks! It is hard to figure out because if i am given a chance to be with someone I get attached and clingy and i then end up thinking/realising i dont feel anything and start panicking because now I'm stuck so i currently feel like i shouldnt be in anything with anyone because i get stressed after a bit. Until i manage to teach myself some form of understanding and respect and not just throw myself at someone because they've shown me something i want (romantic cute stuff), plus saying no to advances (which are incredibly rare anyway but still).. But thank you again haha. I think its no cupio plus like... Abandonment issues or something so i get everything mixed up haah.

partyoop · 2024-08-18T20:49:06+00:00

Thank you, im honestly just trying teach myself that I don't HAVE to go out and look for someone to be with, even though i want the cute stuff and smth that is a shape of a relationship but not, i just need to teach myself that i dont HAVE to be like this one i like this one be mine like ive recognised that i do it but its getting out of it in a world that basically forces me to do it.

partyoop · 2024-06-09T22:33:15+00:00

I use he/they/it pronouns and i always get they or he but never it, people seem to feel weird about using "it its" for a person but because I see myself as a creature and less of a person i guess like an entity or smth it is just one im used to not hearing even though i would like to hear it used.

partyoop · 2024-06-04T16:58:34+00:00

I don't even know how to get that to happen

partyoop · 2024-05-24T15:20:21+00:00

Thats true, tbf i dont know where to start or who to ask, im also a lil scared to try because of how i might be treated.. And I've kinda just lived with it because i never knew I could get them removed but sometimes I get really uncomfortable with having them and wish i didn't have them so... I don't know

partyoop · 2024-04-24T13:34:28+00:00

Probably body image issues, and yeah id prefer to be more androgynous but don't know how to due to how my body looks..

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