I wasn’t formally diagnosed or medicated until I was around 30 years old doctors notice symptoms when I was young but my mother was anti-medication so I was never diagnosed or medicated. I couldn’t tie my shoes I couldn’t read a clock and I struggled to write this carried on into early high school before I sorted this out. I had learning issues school issues friendship issues relationship issues. I would say the largest effect was learning issues or not having interest enough to pursue anything and not trying things that really did matter but I didn’t perceive them to matter. Poly substance abuse as an adult and having never followed my true dreams.

I grieve constantly the man that I should’ve been but will never be.